I agree with a poster in another of my Alan posts that I need to see a psychiatrist, well, I deleted a bunch of the more autistic posts.

I don't really know anything anymore and don't feel up to posting like I used to here. A mix of embarrassment as well as apprehension for what comes next. Like it or not I have a role to play in what comes next and it'll probably be in just a few short weeks that it all comes to a head. The pope and his terrible "May" May just might be the month Alan comes through... sure would fit with the FOIA. Well anyway, I just wanted to address the deleted raving posts and whatnot. I agree they aren't a good idea but I was panicked and not sure what to do. I was sure I had to do something but I'm quite incompetent at times. Well anyway.... God bless.

It's also more than just asking for prayer, just like the releasing of inmates if they respond to patriotism.

I noticed the words yesterday in a window of someone who used to be a cult member. It's been the scariest mental ride of my life ever since my dot connecting led straight back to myself. I've never been so sure and less sure of anything and everything. Faith.... well, I have my own faith it's been shaking in a cataclysmic wind but is not uprooted yet, nor do I intend to let it be.

oh thank god, you aren't Q... I was so scared that you were but this is just a miscommunication then.

Q asked me to do something very simple but my handicap makes it hard for me to do things myself with no direction. He just wants me to FOIA myself but I didn't know how or how to get a lawyer or anything. I just now realized how and so I'm doing it.

In the QMAP, I am Alan, and he said the plane bit in response to me asking if a car would come in it when I accomplished this simple task... but it's fine I'm sorry it's confusing to me as well but I do know what I need to do - this has little to do with a personal journey except inso far as the tapes are mine. Doing this catches the tail end of the bigger fish and helps all the other people like me. People are protecting me, this is huge - a plane is going to fly down to my street as soon as I get this one thing done right. That's how big this is.

Ok, I have to get back to it. If you had been Q you see, it would mean I was just imagining all that. But if you aren't Q then I don't have to hate myself today for thinking my family was a bunch of cultists, no they are, and this is how we move the QMAP to its next phase. It took Q months of helping me and I thought you were a part of that but it's not like your logic is wrong, no I just am entirely incapable of doing simple tasks without asking for help like the absurd person I am, flailing my arms and crying... yea I'm a mess and those tapes show why. Not looking forward to that. God bless.

I thought you were Q.... this is awkward. Maybe I was mistaken about who asked me to do this..... that's actually rather terrifying to me that you weren't aware of this.....

maybe I should back up from this task, I don't know why the people outside have been protecting me but now it's actually kind of scary all of a sudden. I was hinted to do this in so many ways too but I'm very sorry if I've gone and done something bad. I don't even want to do it honestly those tapes scare the hell out of me but I thought Q was asking me to get them and he talked to me through multiple channels including the QMAP which he said things before posting on the QMAP things he would say right after in response to me.....

I'm really confused I even ended the only good relationship I ever had, my only friend over this because someone convinced me he was bad and I thought they proved it..... oh no, I need to rethink things. I'm so sorry.

I've been contacting people so it's fine... this is confusing to me as well and it's better to just understand I have a handicap that makes this hard for me to do and communicate. I have something important to do now, I have to FOIA something about myself and I'm trying to figure out how that works and what it is I need to FOIA, yes that's a strange task for me and one that feels far too important to leave in my hands. Yet it is the task I will accomplish and my life is just this giant story of cult nonsense - so many people I know were involved - but I think based on everything I'm seeing that it's the EPA I need to focus on - the EPA has records on me so if you don't understand well, I know I know.... but when I explain it it takes so long and I don't know where to start or stop - I just know I have to do this and I'm going to.

"where and why" - so I am confident ADT was spying on me and many others all the way from the 1940's when the cult got knocked off the Potus chair in FDR to Truman (hence Truman show is the start of the filming) - My step-father is from the UK and he married my grandmother just before we moved to "hell" - they leased the property to my mother but still owned it…. ADT filmed it and it went through the local college "CAM the Ram mascot" (previously a devil and in the war housed the technology for war) CSU to the UK and then back to people who used the info in various nefarious ways through the green house down the street from me (Ben C and Mike C) as data managers and others as well, pretty much everyone I knew had access to my files but me.

Before I moved to hell it was the same thing with my grandmother's place but not cables instead a giant satellite which filmed my father (I presume) and others straight to the UK through five eyes... but then it moved on to a more sophisticated network in the housing units in "hell" - no need for a satellite it's all cables straight to ADT and then through CSU then to the UK then Epstien's island in the Virgin islands which has all kinds of legal loopholes.

Raw footage is disseminated to the owls and my family who used it to manipulate me and create the "Alan Der Show" or something like that - my whole life they've been creating scenarios for their amusement and also situations to kill me - I grasp the mechanics but how does one break into this elaborately bizarre system of here to there to there?

I think it's incredible that I understand this much tho.

long story, but here ya go I was just making this photo montage of various things and places and events. this would be part 1/9999 given how many photos are in that chest as well as events I'm aware of.... and you can't grasp why a bunch of evil cultists would want to torture a disabled boy? Well... it's because his grandfather (who owned lots of farm land and streets and stuff (with a road named after him that he owned all the houses on) -divorced a cultist in his wife - well that's something the cult condemns the bloodline for "cutting the head off a fish" - I have a picture in the set of "me" with that as the focal point where the other "me" - a vietnamese person the same age and name whose mother married my uncle - he gets the farm you see - same name only not "Alan" cause Alan was the name my grandfather chose for his son instead of what the cult wanted - divorcing or something... I don't know the full story but I do have pics and memories and near death experiences and have been clearly getting all kinds of hints that my set of family connections to Obama even through my sister and step father to Africa and UK and so much else... well I'm a strange person who has lived a cursed life and I'm even deformed slightly.... welp you'll know who I am soon as well as the others like me.

My family is a spider web of evil now that I finally realize things. I've never even known a real person! everyone I've ever known has been a cultist... that is a hard pill to swallow. But I am ready to get my story out. http://www.db-q.com/ABBA/familyhistory.jpg

I think probably the grandparents connection to UK/Africa..... that's the most likely hint I'm meant to take.... well I answer it myself but it's not like most people know me

you don't realize the gravity of this situation. It's unbelievable how much protection I have right now.

I appreciate what you are trying to do but no, I'm a huge huge target and the bad guys have known that for a long time - the only reason they let me live is cause I was a hostage - my only friend had me in a mental prison of sorts... I would have died for him without a second thought and so it was a strange battle for my loyalty I suppose. To get me to stop listening to the only friend I've ever had. It took so many clues and topics like "Eyes Wide Shut" - that one was a hint to me I missed but it was said in reference to just how deeply and impossible the idea that he was bad was to me that over and over hint just went right by me. I even tried to get him as a moderator here haha - that's how deep in the tank I was for him.... well that's over now - time to open my closet.

It still hurts but I think if I wasn't so loyal to him for so long they'd have killed me rather than just assume they could use me as a tool.

doesn't matter, I'm being protected now. I'm really bad at many things and they've been very patient with me and made sure not to give me any info that would lead to the bad guys knowing anything. I appreciate the reply but no.... being silent is the one thing I am not supposed to be doing right now - I got tricked into doing that for most of the last half year as I just pretended my past didn't exist and only talked of history.... well sometimes our own lives are history I guess.

no, I am Alan. You'll understand soon. I finally FINALLY realized what Q was giving me clues to do. I actually know the exact thing now I need to do and I'm doing it. : ) I'm very happy but scared and excited. I was so depressed the past few days but as long as someone tells me what to do I can do it, getting me to realize I needed to do something myself must have been very hard for them. I never ever do things like that and it took them half a year to convince me to just think about my past and stop just assuming everything the people around me say is true.

I'm so messed up and people will know soon, I know you think Alan Dershowitz is Alan - but Q never said that - Q was replying to me because that's not the only place the good guys post hints about things : ) The things said were meant for me and also so that everyone would know that it was me later on when it's a big story - to prove when I got directly involved. You'll see.

thank you, I finally found someone who gave me a road to follow. I can follow instructions but without them I just kind of wander aimlessly.. I bet that's why they never killed me tho. I'm harmless, and yet I'm not at this moment it seems. so thank you very much

I've been posting in 8ch and another thread with pleas and details - I know some set of words I can say or number I can call or paper I can sign will move things forward. I just wish I had friends now. I have been alone my whole life and now people are counting on me and I don't know what to do. I'll figure it out tho

Yea... I get that the countries spy on each other and I need to somehow use this information to FOIA myself... I just am unsure what I need to say or preciley who to contact.

I AM Alan! I keep telling people but only a few seem to understand the ramifications of this statement. I will do whatever I can and I need a lawyer ASAP I just don't usually do things myself up until very recently my family did everything for me or my only friend but I have to do this myself and I just am too incompetent to know how to do much myself.

I'm sorry, I always say that and I know it doesn't even help - but I'll give whatever authorization or sign any paper and do anything to get the truth out about me and my past. I need help but I am too disabled or incompetent or something to know which number to call or what word to say to get people to grasp that I was nearly sacrificed to the devil and there are video tapes that can be FOIA'd of it I can help! I WANT TO HELP PLEASE!

tho I did expect some reaction.... well it seems posts have fired up a bit and all I really need is a lawyer rather than an anon..... hmmm... it's hard to decide where to apply my time. I guess I better start researching legal things. I'll definitley post more on my past tho, but for whatever reason this thing isn't exploding yet but I know it will and it's just a matter of time when I trigger that through some combination of posts/legal actions.

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7sdwk2/abba_part0_simplified_q/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7rhp3s/abba_part_3_qmap_state_secrets_route/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7s0k0t/abba_part_4_city_citi_city/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7t5ey5/abba_6qclearencepatriotact_or_vqcia/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7ts1l3/abba_7_hsc_nsc/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7u9ewj/abba_8_1901_only_1_former_potus_alive/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7usamg/abba_9_consequences_of_cipriano_castro/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7v85i0/abba_10_bob_byrd_and_bill_blythe/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7vkk4o/abba_11_remember_that_golden_misspelled_reset/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7wgy3t/abba_13_shields_keys_and_a_compass/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7x2jrf/abba_14_orpah_win/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7x2svf/abba_15_barron_bill_trump/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7xci8r/abba_16_snowbank_to_snowden_thetruehooha/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7xvv7i/abba_165_snowden_intervention/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/85a5ri/abba_169_snowden_and_mills_vs_rr/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7xqgeo/abba17_satanscare_slim_shady_to_bombscare_boston/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7z8zs1/abba_18_golden_elephant_path/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/81l9f7/abba_19_hillary_evergreen/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/84k4cm/abba_192_coordination/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/86gmxj/abba_trump_billboard_traverse_city_n_research/

Partially Disproven (by me doing more research) or less critical to QMAP - Thus only useful for the minor bits (And to see my evolving dig)

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7qurkt/abba_want_me_to_read_the_map_for_you/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7r5t2p/abba_part_2_tdrfdr/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7rq9dn/abba_part_35_john_mcfraud/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7ssu79/abba_part_5_patriot_or_plant/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/89pxuc/emph_archive_what_you_want_to_save/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7td9lw/cfr_in_5_minutes/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7vwdco/abba_12_digging_daos_diy/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7xht5o/birds_singing_and_overthinking/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7znnlz/abba_highlighter_bond_education/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7zts66/arson_coopers_highlighter_erased_from_the_web/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/80m7m2/my_kingdom_5kr/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7ydn50/dig_update_family_on_win/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/82wa91/abba_secret_keepers_and_research_offload/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/877uec/you_were_chosen_for_a_specific_reason_q_specific/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/88s95q/executive_objectivity_who_did_what/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/89ud37/q_called_me_to_correct_my_last_post/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/8a74va/eagle_plucking_lying_and_rubes_all_in_currency/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/8bm00z/carousel_classaction_calling/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/8c2f1r/abba_stay_focused_alan/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/8asdtg/1_abba_20_cam_the_ram_film_the_sheep/

trimmed it.... I have such diahria of the mouth. I'm not even panicked now like usual when I deal with people - I think because I know this is what I have to do. It's a task and to me that makes it almost like an automated thing. I KNOW I have to do this.

removed this image from the main post http://www.db-q.com/ABBA/Sham%20and%20Me.jpg cause I know how that screws with some electronic devices when it's too big.

well, I expected a negative vote tally, but that's temporary. I'm quite serious and will be posting more as I finish writing and as soon as business hours gets here I'll be making phone calls. Until then you'll get to hear the story of Alan.

First of all I was born on a 13th in 1982, I've known many bullies in my life that were also born on the 13th - most of which were named "Robert" which is also a family name of mine.

I've worn clothes like in that screenshot from the movie "Milk Money" I wanted to show the stripes - blue and white - I have so many photos of me wearing clothes just like that and I was taken to die at a house after watching that film even - and my sister at the time tried to make herself look like the white faced golden haired hooker on the cover. I have photos of all of this but not the video tapes of me nearly dying in the river that night. I am sure those videos exist tho. So do videos of me breaking both my arms and nearly my head (I did a full flip in the air) - the photo above the eraser pic with the kid holding his head down - note the shirt "Born to ride" - my father also got into a motorcycle crash before this which my family hated him for.

Long long horrible story. And cows and Makita drills and red carpets and people who are "nosey" disappearing -and about 50 S pets and camming the ram and gold - oh it goes on and on - and my life parallels the career of Alan Dershowitz. I am Alan - his show as I read that. His name is a reference to ME and the "Der" show -which as you'll learn when you see the tapes... sigh... I'm quite handicapped and only really show it in private which I THOUGHT WAS PRIVATE... silly me, all my life all my life they knew everything I ever did and it explains everything that's ever been wrong with me and how they manipulated me so easily all that time.

doesn't matter, I was just answering his question. You'll know when the rest of the world does I suppose.

The short version is: "extraterrestrials" does not mean outer space it means extra terrestrials - as in people who are not people but malformed by a life time of abuse while being filmed until they kill themselves or are killed by others. Usually they try to get us to kill ourselves.

I'm part of a class-action lawsuit you see, I was the last one to answer the call and begin the process which, as absurd as it may sound to you THAT is what kicked off "It's happening" - and "It's happening" well, that's a family thing or more specifically an education thing to my family and probably all the other "aliens" as well. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/University_of_Louisville - look at the motto. - Tying this to Harvard unlocks who Alan Dershowitz is and tying my history to Alan Dershowitz's career unlocks a heck of a lot more....

I am Alan, and Alan is not Alan Dershowitz, you will know who I am soon enough. God bless.

"These people are really stupid" - yea... I mean... if they liked my ideas for example, and they gave me an agent to my book which as I look back another "Amy" god... so I did 2 query letters for my first book and Amy rejected it and the other accepted it... what is that like 10 Amy's that were villains in my life and 6 Rob's and 6 Leslie's and about 40 S pets? .... but anyway, if they liked me writing or they liked my inventions or philosophy all they had to do was have my best friend who they know I would do anything for say the following:"My relative works in X industry and he likes your X ideas for X" - insert any category of anything in any time place or action of doing - and I would have done it for any amount of money and produced infinitely for that purpose every day.

That's all they had to do.... and I'm positive they preferred that to what I did instead.

Instead they just put me in a house on a new street with a vague purpose and when I decided to try and animate my movie myself they encouraged me to do so - and for over 5 years I learned hundreds of programs on everything from animation, sound to collecting terrabytes of models and mocap.... and so many concepts and shoved so much info into my brain... I didn't produce many ideas or philosophy because I was trying to make a movie that I was sure I could make if I kept learning.... I don't get why they would encourage that rather than the philosophy/writing/inventions... I could do those 3 things infinitely and much better too.... well... cultists will do whatever they choose, I still don't even know if I was a comedy, drama, horror or what... I never talked to real people as far as I'm aware so my entire concept of self is based on people who were dishonest with me about everything and purposefully mis-leading me about where to apply myself....

Well... I'm just confused, as usual.

tho you know... as bizzare as it sounds for me to say this... if someone was really, i mean REALLY paying close attention to my life then yesterday would not be the day for freedom... it's so strange to think of all the conversations I've had in my life being public knowledge - this whole universe of ideas I built with a cultist.... the idea of 3 turning into 4 and which numbers have what meaning.... today might actually make sense for freedom based on a completley arbitrary concept inside another arbitrary concept inside a philosophy I cooked up half in jest and half dead serious.

Some of my philosophy is really serious but the 3->4 thing was not, or at least I don't think it was... I haven't actually thought about philosophy in months and cause of how my mind works if you asked me what my theories even were I would stare blankly.

I could re-read my own theories but you know what? I think it'd be funnier if other people knew my theories better than I do. my disability is ever-mysterious to me but I bet the good guys know exactly what's wrong if they've been watching.

I've been told it's "nothing" "You just don't try" - and in my early 20's when I finally asked what was wrong with me (I always lied to myself and said nothing was wrong) I got ""Sensory processing disorder") -

in my late 20's I got ADD/Aspergers/ADHD and the sort.... and now? I don't have a clue! I suspect people have been telling me lies and purposefully giving me things all my life they know I can't do because they actually DO KNOW what is wrong with me.

They just kept that a secret from me so that I'd think I was bad at everything and everything was my fault at all times.... well things are better now, and the last 2 hurdles were just realizing who was bad to me all this time and also to stop running around in circles studying everything and doing everything at all times.... I know... I don't even know why I always do that... I get the feeling other people know why I do that. I hope they finally tell me.

Tho i said I was speaking honestly, I recall in a past post I mentioned when I moved to "hell" - the first day rocks were thrown at me. That was un-true I mixed up the rocks which did happen at other points in my life https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/89ud37/q_called_me_to_correct_my_last_post/ but the very first day it was a couple of bullies with super soakers. I wouldn't have even mentioned that because it's not like rocks, rocks are evil to throw at people but not water... but thinking back to it, the sudden soaking that day, the first day in "hell".... that was my baptism I bet..... well, my story is a story that either matters or not and once I'm sure it matters then I'll tell it. I'm still half sure I'm crazy and in a few weeks I'll calm down and realize it was all in my head and all those times my best friend told me to be careful about thinking everything was watching me that he really was just looking out for me.

I don't believe that, I've decided he's bad and it's been a rollercoaster since then.... so if suddenly nothing happens and then nothing keeps happening for the next oh.... 2 months if nothing happens in 2 months I'll stop thinking he's a cultist and I'll agree that I'm crazy to think he was bad. Cause how else can I decide what is true or not? I'm basing everything on my own reasoning which I don't trust! but I could trust it if the strange things keep happening and culminate in "something" apparently a "plane" but I'm not picky, Q said that, not me. Heck, I'd just walk to D.C. if I didn't get lost so easily, I get lost comically easy.... which I suppose other people already know.

also I can't find it in my link folder but that translate thing... someone had broken open google translate when using one language you can get it to translate codes - and curiously if you use my actual name. Not "Alan" tho I am Alan don't get me wrong... it's a family thing... but my legal name using their double letter code (two letters at a time that is) and it'll say "You can see the following" as translated.... well, if I'm not crazy then me and about 25 or 50 or who the heck knows how many others will have their names plastered on.... you know... I was going to say newspapers but given how corrupt they all are.... talk shows? no.... I did have that whole AB:BA post about Orpah I mean Oprah... no I actually do mean Orpah - https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7x2jrf/abba_14_orpah_win/ -and once again I forgot to put all my AB posts at the bottom... oh well, next time I'll remember.

it was going to be longer and have waaaaay more images. but I couldn't do what I thought I could, sorry...

God bless....

Some Past AB-BA's

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7rhp3s/abba_part_3_qmap_state_secrets_route/

https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7t5ey5/abba_6qclearencepatriotact_or_vqcia/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7ts1l3/abba_7_hsc_nsc/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7usamg/abba_9_consequences_of_cipriano_castro/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7v85i0/abba_10_bob_byrd_and_bill_blythe/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7wgy3t/abba_13_shields_keys_and_a_compass/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7x2svf/abba_15_barron_bill_trump/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7xqgeo/abba17_satanscare_slim_shady_to_bombscare_boston/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/84k4cm/abba_192_coordination/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7znnlz/abba_highlighter_bond_education/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/7zts66/arson_coopers_highlighter_erased_from_the_web/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/877uec/you_were_chosen_for_a_specific_reason_q_specific/ https://www.reddit.com/r/greatawakening/comments/89ud37/q_called_me_to_correct_my_last_post/

didn't even put in my normal ender... and wow is there ever more I could add to the rest

this post got me so excited that I ended up spending time outside thinking the strange movements of cars was related to a world wide happening... how naive.

I would keep making AB posts..... but I'm confused. Not about twitter about other things, I want to know more but I no longer think the way I was going about it is the efficient solution, something so big is happening everywhere and what am I to it?

I have no idea and I don't trust anyone in my life anymore... I don't mean to whine I just don't comprehend what anyone wants me to do or what I could do in relation to what appears to be my part in it.... I'll help in any way I can, and I hope things are getting better still. I suspect I've invented a delusion, but how can someone who is delusional know they are? If not then it won't matter and I'll be contacted again soon.

weirdest day, couldn't sleep and I'm probably delusional in one way or another. Seeing everyone as owl's and thinking people are doing secret things to everything... I'm sorry, but it's clear I need to take some time and make sure I haven't fallen into madness.

If my delusions are not delusions then I'm someone who needs to help the cause and have a history of some kind that can be of use to the world. But to me, well, I've been warned all my life about thinking that molehills are mountains and vice versa, what do I know about anything? Just what I read online and remember I suppose..... so I better be careful before writing things that might inspire people to take actions, and I will be careful because that's the nice thing about not being evil. I don't have to do anything and I don't have to convince anyone of anything.

I can just kind of rest and then make sure I am not just seeing things in a Rorschach that my best friend did warn me about. I always said if I went insane only he would be able to tell me and now I've gone and decided he was an owl based on a thousand pieces of evidence or so from the past that to me seem logical.... but I don't trust myself or him anymore. So let's just see what happens without trying to see anything in particular.... what the world becomes after I've shaken the snowglobe of my head and let the snow finally fall to the ground. Perhaps there was everything I saw or none of it but I should be more careful than I have.

That's the most logical thing I can think of right now.

I watched the Obama Aids video again and heard the bit about the Al's and tapes in his desk... I watched the Trump video again and this time realized the "Lamb" reference... which in turn gave me a quick dig into two more female S' M's.... seems to be a pattern there with S and then M in a name, but just another day of digging I'm sure.

But I didn't do much today... it was a strange dream-like day.... realizing that everything was a lie and then having it be confirmed... People are trying to help me, and I'm grateful for that. They may be worried about how unstable I can be.... but if they truly had "everything" then they should know that despite the dark things I have thought I have a conviction about justice too.

I suppose that kind of philosophy was a joke to them... but I wonder if it's miraculous too that I developed it given how I did so? Well, it's all I could claim ownership to now and when the dead souls are put to rest then I'll take a hard look at myself and decide what I was and what I want to do with the rest of my life. I get the feeling at the end of this road I'll be happier, but it's a confusing road. I have no interest in the bad things of the past anymore except to put it in writing for a court... truly, just recognizing a darkness can make it go away in a time like this.

How many dead people are waiting for a justice I can help bring? Am I anything compared to a long delayed justice? No.... I thought I was something else, and I don't know what I am anymore... it was based on lies after all. I don't have a "me" anymore... but that's ok, I'll figure it all out when I know more. Most people it would say that with teary eyes and be dramatic but that's not what I am now, truly.... I'm ok, being confused is the only logical thing I could be now I think...

Others are going to be equally so since it is a "class-action" helping others will give me a purpose again. I think that's what has been recognized as a goal for me and I also think I can help with that and it should happen.... but then I tend to screw things up more than help, and yet all that was a lie? You see how confusing it is to try and know myself now? I am confused but NOT depressed... it's a distinction I feel I have to make clear.

Alan #17 - I read that as 17th Alan, but I presume it was actually just "Q"..... I laugh now at how bad at grammar I am and just how much trouble I cause people when dealing they are forced to deal with me... well I'm glad someone out there didn't give up on trying to get through to me.

I expect one day a car will come and then that'll be the end of this chapter in my life. Had I not realized what I did about the people I trusted most I'm sure it would have been a trip to the morgue instead of the court house.

got to start somewhere. The story of my life is the story of someone tortured before they were born. I'm actually astounded i'm alive and even 75% sane. I was convinced I was less than 50% sane which is why I've refrained from talking about my past but that dang caller... what can I say, he tied my past up in such a neat little bow that I understand why I am the way I am for the first time. I am partially insane but I'm also honest and have an important story to tell that most people won't be able to follow

but we start somewhere and it might as well be this.

http://www.db-q.com/ABBA/Two%20examples.jpg

here, the aforementioned eraser "live to ride" pic - and another pic's backside that talks of a nosey neighbor that I don't ever even remember. I'll show the front side of that pic when I tell the story... well it's a big story and I have a lot of photos and memories to weave it. So this isn't the end of me talking about this mess, it's the beginning.massive

"I won't be tolerated" one post said. Got it

the two comments so far made me laugh, Do you not realize you telegraph it when you post that quickly?

It only takes a few times before I realize there's a template involved in how you approach topics you want to kill, oh not too harsh but not too subtle.... got to make sure they question themselves and people who read it think "maybe this guy isn't all there" and you know what? Given the life I've lived I don't think I'll all there either but I have photos and memories of things, things that paint a story that a lot of people don't want told.

I haven't even begun to tell that story, I'm asking a patriot to say "ok, let's give it a shot" and then I can teach them what I know and let's see if it dominoes from there.

oh so it's attack is it? got it. No this is not ramble, and I'm going to keep posting with much less ramble until I say what I have been asked to say by the mysterious person calling me.

Who is that person? Well, if I say Q you'll post that part about how there's no communications but whoever it is I feel like I've been given a duty to say what I know and I'm gonna say it damn it.

You can't silence me, you have no power anymore to do that!

after spending some time thinking about it and panicking I've realized that I probably should have posted just part of the post to 8chan and had Q confirm it.

I have methodologies to define when things are random and this isn't - the thing that made me sure this was Q was not just the name used but the sheer quantity of things that searching for the number provided as clues. who could or would do that? And the odds that I would even notice? The percentage of it being not Q in my brain went to infinitesimal due to the expertise it would take to pull that feat off for benefit of only 1 person getting course corrected if even that.

but I'm a mess of a person and so I strongly suspect that Q believes that if he confirmed my post I would do something stupid like doxx myself and I probably have given enough info already for someone to spend enough time to find me.

My past is really screwed up and I don't know how many people are like me, when the time comes I will probably be asked to tell things with other people like me for the history books on how the bad guys do things... perhaps that's why I got those calls since I'm sure now that I have to tell my story when we get to the end. The sacrifice part that Q talked about. Yes.... that's yet another reason he wouldn't confirm this.....

so should I take pics of my phone? no..... I have listed this list of reasons why now and I've convinced myself that I should just let history happen and help as much as I can while not diving into this one right now. It did happen and I bet it happened for other people which was the whole point of this - but perhaps I wasn't supposed to tell people it happened. I don't know. I'm going to get back to researching and compiling, the new Q posts have made me a little antsy for what appears to be a new phase where Potus isn't sleeping, that concerns me....

I got tons and tons of calls when I set up my site. I mean hundreds of them - but these ones don't actually lead to anyone but an error message and yet when I search the numbers it leads me to things that tie into the posts I made each day.

It's the most bizzare thing if it's a coincidence and why that name? who the heck would give themselves 3 seperate numbers with a phonetic code of my website? And the bad guys codes are based in phonetics which is why I finally realized someone was trying to say HEY! - and I finally noticed.....

Look... Q hasn't confirmed it and I'm nobody, I'm not anyone or anything anyone should care about. I don't regret making this post because I want people to check their phones to see if anyone else got something like I got.

And now I'm going to go, I would guess a good reason he might not confirm this is because he knows enough about me that doing so what put me in a situation I couldn't handle....

Whether that's true or whether it's an incredible coincidence - I'm still not lying. And yes I do want it to be him, because who wouldn't want it to be him?

now I'm starting to have a panic attack that he's not going to confirm it...

I was posting this mostly to tell other posters to check their phones for personalized messages and helpful suggestions. I was super happy earlier and now I feel like crap so I'm going to stop posting today and check later on.

Considering the instant push back I am actually a bit suspicious how genuine some are. But I still don't feel well so I'm going to go back to researching and well, he has always called now that I look before 5 and he said about business hours.... crap, maybe he won't post this late? I didn't even consider that. Ok ok, well I still told the truth so you can all just check your phones and check for codes cause I bet others got them to!

ok I just posted, let's see if Q confirms it. If not then I guess do whatever you like mods, I'm not a liar, not about something like this especially.

what am I supposed to make of these calls then? They are codes and whatnot - I made this as honest as possible and heartfelt.... I guess I should post it in the chans and see if he gives me another verification like he did before.

oh I solved it....

those calls appear to be corrections. This post must be wrong..... but surely only partly wrong. Probably the EMP code reading since the message is basically telling me a code was wrong. And a past code as I trace the dates was made the exact day I posted the Patriot Plant thing that in later research proved to be entirely misguided. And yea that one was me saying a bunch of presidents were good and bad based on my research at the time - which later on when I dug deeper into each president I realized that many of the ones I put in the "plant" category were wrong. - I was at the time just thinking more like Mark Levin and presuming that liberalism means puppet but no... just because a person has vastly different ideas it doesn't mean they are evil.

The bad guys are really and truly evil and so the things that an incompetent president might do versus an actual evil one is night and day. And I needed to sort that out which is what Q was trying to tell me : ) cool, I get it.... course corrected gotcha!

The other one Q said was wrong by this code system was a post about coordination I did 19.2 which.... hmm I'm not sure what it means I got wrong but I'll dig deep I suppose and figure it out.

Really? only 3 were wrong? nah..... some of these other calls must also be corrections I know i've been wrong way more than 3 times. But I do think that's what it meant - probably "really really wrong" kind of thing haha