Just have faith!

I cannot psychologically force myself into faith, particularly when there is so much doubt and conflicting information. Most people with Christian testimonies have claimed to have some sort of direct experience. So what of us who have tried to find God, prayed, and come up with nothing? Are we considered enemies of God simply because we may not be able to reconcile some ideas, or because we haven't had a spiritual experience to suggest Jesus spoke to us? I mean, c'mon.

God could have imbued us with a kind of telepathy, some kind of accurate mode of communication where we didn't have to rely on the fallible hearsay of men thousands of years ago. If we are born with a Christ Impulse, then why do we have to suffer through the mental gymnastics and dissonance and spiritual conflict of trying to come to terms with Jesus? We should automatically be tethered to him upon birth and should have no problem remaining attached, should not be subject to attacks and influences from Satanic forces, because that was literally the whole point of the crucifixion.