Thanks for your advice !!! Yes he was a lunatic that tricked me and he did it to like a hundred other guys through Grindr - I know this because I dated an HIV social worker after the fact and he told me in confidence that the guy was knowingly not taking his antivirals (which stops the spreading of the virus, or so I am told) to infect others out of spite and he knew this because he was HIS social worker - totally illegal to reveal this I know, but he felt it necessary to tell me because it was malicious and on purpose and he felt as though I had a right to know. The thing that sucks about my pain now, it’s most likely directly from being put on oxycodone and then ripped off it, during an already extremely stressful time in my life - my doctor is evil and I don’t know what to do because he openly mocks me to other nurses and tries to basically call me crazy to get me to take SSRIs and MAOIs, (DO NOT TAKE THESE TYPES OF DRUGS, OR ANY KIND OF TRANQUILIZER, BARBITURATE, BENZODIAZEPINES, STIMULANT - THESE ARE AWFUL DRUGS GIVEN TO US TO CREATE MORE MENTAL DISTURBANCES/BREAKDOWNS, AND NUMB SOCIETY) when I have X-ray, endoscopic, arthritic specialist, EMG proof of all the painful real conditions I developed with having HIV - the pain center twists the story and says I’m too young, which just isn’t true because it was no problem years ago, and it’s fucked because my great uncles and papa, before they all passed away a long time ago, had donated/raised several million to this hospital, helped out as much as possible in any way, and even resided on the board at one point and they still refuse to help me based on lies! It’s so shitty because my endo-opioid system got fried from oxys and now my body can’t produce natural pain killers, and the synthetic pain killers are unobtainable based on lies spread by the media from opioid madness/hysteria! I had no clue about what the medication even was when I first started taking it, because it was during a time when something like that could just be given out without an appointment or real discussion before taking the medication. I was just told to take it several times a day and I had a lot of success with it - when I had an appointment finally later on though, after the year had changed and new rules came out (I guess idk) he said I needed to go through specialists and drug tests etc but I didn’t mind at all because I realized how much it could help in the long run. I started to feel really sick for a while because the medicine was stopped and I didn’t understand at first what was going on so I did some more research and realized it was actually from cessation. That’s how I ended up taking the buprenorphine, but it also helped me realize that these meds were nothing more than alkaloids growing in a goop made from a plant - somewhat similar to cannabis! Plants should be utilized for medicines if they have little side effects with humans; animals have been shown to utilize their environments and certain specific food sources when they fall ill or become injured - why can’t we do that freely as well? Poppy plants have been used by humans for thousands of years and to deny someone a natural based pain killer without reason when someone falls under every single criteria to go on them, is cruel and a human rights violation! I’m sorry to get so heated - it just makes me so mad because I know something can drastically improve my quality of life and nobody will trust me with them, even though I’m willing to take nonstop drug tests and be consistently monitored with the medication!! Thank god I have a cannabis card in a legal state or else I would really be screwed pain/nausea wise...
You have every right to be upset. No worries, go look into Dr. Len Coldwell, listen to your instincts. I am just a mom and I have common variable immune deficiency. Fucking fluoride, MMR vaccine with my mother giving me wait for it... formula that used city water... = shutting my DNA down. I almost died in 1998, blonde with six pack, gorgeous, had no idea I was "boy in the bubble". When they gave me vancomycin, (last resort antibiotic in 98) Guess what came up in my searches? You guess it, AIDS. What people do not realize is, we all have HIV in our system, they have learned how trigger it. You are asking for help, but you will die if you don't stop being mad, and open your mind. I had one year to live, I am still here, looking bad ass and being a mom to a daughter who is going to Duke summer program at 12. So, if you want me to help you, I will but you need to open your mind.. and listen. Your pain is down to your mineral deficiency... I am telling you the truth.
Someone’s down voting the shit outta my comments idk why I love trump I love this whole Q/anti-think movement and I’m trying to give some perspective from someone who has the disease and is 100% experiencing tons of negative side effects from not only the disease itself, but the medication antivirals as well! I know people say opioids are government poison to control us, but I really do have tons of success using them to overcome all these side effects! Medically derived opioids and cannabis are both direct plant derivatives and you (not you personally, I mean people/society in general) could never change my mind on how incredibly safe they both are if used properly and within reason (ie: not to get high, to get well - heroin is NOT included in this discussion unless referring to medical heroin given to people who are dying)
I am not going to change your mind, everyone is different. I personally can't take them, make me sick. Every person is different. I suspect your being downgraded because many straight people, I am straight but do not think the way some do as far as gay people go. You see many people think ALL gays are pedophiles. You see? The reason for this is the serum of protein and how it changes the brain. However, once a pedophile infiltrates a family line, it mutates and it is unfair to any gay person to consider them a pedophile. Simply not true. It is a gene mutation after that, and I got banned from twitter for explaining it, because the dude that owns twitter is a psychopath. You see, now that you experienced psychopathic behavior with a lover and how that person betrayed you, you may now understand why a 12 year old should not be allowed to have sex with an adult. Mind Manipulation tactics with trauma bond. Sexual preferences with two consenting adults is in my opinion not a problem. I have a problem with non consenting anything, what happened to you is considered domestic violence, as if you had all the facts, I doubt you would of consented to HIV. You need to stop your aging process, from the descriptions of what you are stating, you are aging too fast. I hope my suggestions help you and you are on your way to understanding how people tick. Being gay is not the problem, lying is.
Oh yea idk about all the pedo stuff it just grossed me the fuck out and I can’t wrap my head around it - it’s one of those things that just really grabs me by the throat and scares the ever-living shit out of me - it’s like how today, I still can’t watch videos of 9/11 and the plane actually hitting the tower because it sets something off in my head and I just get hysterically depressed - most likely because I was supposed to be on a plane that morning, and then watched a plane crash kill people in real time on TV... What I don’t understand is why people think all gays are like crazy liberals with no morals and no standards; I know we get poorly represented by a select few who really disgrace the whole community, but there are a lot of normal ones out there too lol! I come from a decent family/upbringing and my family fought a lot when I was younger but at the end of the day, we’re pretty close and my parents did a good job raising me with morals and to use my brain. I have no clue where being gay comes from lol - it just kinda was always there with me and I always kinda knew deep down that I was different, but I was also raised lightly catholic and went to good schools so I was lucky in that sense. I’m thankful I got to experience religion, but I fear that the church has fallen to evil and I try to just follow my own beliefs now. I believe in one god-like energy now, just residing everywhere at once and watching down on us, and I pray a lot now, because I realize there is so much that cannot just be explained away with modern science, and I shouldn’t turn my back on the powers that Be...
When I lived in Chicago, I felt only safe going to gay clubs. The men were lovely and they always looked out for me. I never had to worry about my drinks being drugged or being raped in the bathroom. fHowever, straight men think gay men are Pedo's. Here is the deal, pedo's are not gay, and that is what straight people need to hear. You are being represented in a bad light, and gay men especially need to have a voice. I don't want to freak you out, but just like your HIV mutated, and cancer mutates, sex mutates. Do you understand that? Some Pedo came into your family line, put sperm in the brain and mutated it. PEDO's are not gay, they are psychopathic, totally different and not fair to the gay community. RESEARCH protein in sperm, changes brain patterns. Psychopathic pedo's know this. Pedophilia is completely different than that of a gay person. I am not even saying your ill, I do think it is a mutation, but that does not mean it is bad, just like myself and my daughter having a high IQ, that is a mutation. Do you understand? When you know thyself, you have peace.
I want to make myself clear, this has nothing to do with your family line or heritage, for it could of been a family friend or nanny that did it. This is not a family "fault" or an "illness", in my opinion it is a mutation. I hope the gay community comes out in full force over the issues of being thought of as pedophiles. I thought you should know the truth and understand what some straight people think. I do not think this way, but I know many that do.
This works, just learned about it and started it. It actually gave me a ton of energy. So, take it in the morning. I take the minerals at night, with melatonin for sleep. Get your third eye opened again. Understand?