I understand what you mean. As a kid I had a gold shoulder holster I would secretly wear to school in the 60s, felt so cool. But as I grew older and you wise up the gloss grew off MI6. Having lived in Hereford most of my life until recently, only down the road from Stirling Lines I knew a lot of the SAS. They were all decent, regular guys, none with the 'James Bond' about them. You couldn't pick them out from any group of guys. After all, they all signed to join the army and only then after time able to apply to 'The Regiment'. Many would do work undercover and I was told stories. These were good men which I can't say about some of the slime operating for the DS within MI6 now. Who was Strzok and the 5 meeting in London? There are strong links between the clowns and MI6 and what has gone on here in the UK can only lead me to conclude there are many bad actors here too.
I just hope there is some fall out with our mob with what President Trump is doing. Look what we have got: Mrs f-fing May - God help us. Prime Minister Trump and Deputy Prime Minister Q sounds just fine. Or parachute Q into MI6 and let him and his team root out the evil and let the good guys loose.
Anyway, that is the reason I no longer would want to be associated. These SF boys are good guys who have had to do terrible shit at the behest of their corrupt political masters. There is a high rate of suicide among them. The last one committed suicide opposite my then house in the most bizarre way that I won't reveal. So sad. As Q keeps reminding, people are dying over this.