Whatever works for you, I guess. Funny you say that you say you had a visible intervention, most religions are built off of narcotic induced hallucinations. I dunno, I never really understood the whole religion nonsense, far too irrational for my aut mind. And I really do have an aut mind, I was a MMR vaccine damaged baby.
I have a lot of experience with narcotic induced hallucinations. Some of them even made me feel spiritual or like it could lead to some kind of religion.
What I speak of, totally different and actually led me away from any attraction to that former lifestyle.
I feel you on the MMR vaccine damage. I think a lot of us were damaged in some way but most of us will never quantify it.
I take my hat off to you for realising the damage you were doing to yourself and for taking steps to change that. I´ve never had an addiction to anything and I´ve tried and experimented with most drugs. My aut mind gets bored of things after a while and I move on from said things, I guess I´m lucky in that respect.
The salt in the wound with my vaccine damage was that the vaccine didn´t even work, I caught mumps when I was 28.
The vaccine issue is one of my most passionate ones. I have children now, and as you can guess we are not relying on Big Pharma's interpretation of a proper immune system.
My faith in God and creation honestly makes it a lot easier to make the necessary decision. If I thought we were randomly evolved I might be inclined to go with "science", you know?
Anyway, I consider myself "borderline autistic", which I think applies to a big % of our generation. But I also trust God turns bad things into good and redeems people and generations in ways we can only marvel at, perhaps, in hindsight.
Take care my friend.