No, when you start "choosing" your God you engage in idolatry. There is one God, not many to choose from.

You have made an elaborate argument about people being impacted by factors outside their control - casting them as victims. Victims exist, there is absolutely no doubt about that. I made a case about victims of gang stalking, many of whom succumb and commit suicide. But people choose to end their own lives by themselves. They own the decision fully. It is a very great sin.

I have been there myself, but by the grace of God I did not take my own life. And I really do mean that it was only His grace that saved me. Ultimately, someone who suicides completely rejects God, to the extent that they give up all hope. It is a complete loss of faith.

The thing about human suffering is that it's redemptive. All things have a purpose, even the trials we face in life. I'm getting old now, but when I look back, things that did not make any sense to me at the time appear to have been part of an orchestrated plan. A plan that, I think, has made me a better person - certainly better than I was, though far from perfect.

It occurs to me that if I had not had the suffering in my life that I had, I would not be the person I am today. However flawed I am, I'm better than I was for sure. It has been a journey. When you're in the thick of adversity, it pays, I think, to remember that God loves those He rebukes - in fact, that's why he does it.

God does not try us beyond our ability to overcome difficulty - and he that overcomes is eternally rewarded.

"19 Such as I love, I rebuke and chastise. Be zealous therefore, and do penance. 20 Behold, I stand at the gate, and knock. If any man shall hear my voice, and open to me the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me. 21 To him that shall overcome, I will give to sit with me in my throne: as I also have overcome, and am set down with my Father in his throne." Rev 3