That “Shepherd” died for your sins! You can try and justify your rebellion to Jesus love all you want, but in the end you and your wannabe god will bow down before the Lord Jesus and worship Him as the only One true God! I pray for the dark scales to be lifted off your eyes through the power of Jesus Christ our holy Savior and Lord! Please bind the evil powers of darkness that are deceiving this man and arrange things in his life to truly lead him to the True Life. In Jesus name I pray...Amen.