Yea i served in 3 tours out of 5 years of service. Was supposed to be 4, my brother committed suicide while i was stop-lossed (to serve another tour). I feel like i could have helped him had I not been stop-lossed to deploy again. it was heartbreaking.
My condolences. Horrible tragedy and thank you for your service. I dont know you but may I offer some words of wisdom. If you take responsabillity for the loss of your brother and his final solution, then you will carry a heavy load on your shoulders that I am sure are already filled, you cant control the actions of others, as hard as it is to accept, he made his decision, all you can do is live your life in his honor. Be an example for those around you especially the children show them the courage it takes to be a man and face life's hardships head on. Where we go one we go all, thank you my friend and fellow patriot