Every now and again I pop in here and wonder why I don't more often. Great story ww.
my Mrs has a similar one the translates into "ungovernable by tyrants" I cannot even remember what it was meant to be, but this is better.
Apt apt I say!
Can't sleep tonight, have a terrible fright
Once eyes close they won't open again
I can't fucking breathe and I'm so scared to leave
Please bear with me my internet fren
In real life I have to be strongest, to be sad just brings everyone down
Fuck all that they can do about it, so no need to make scenes like a clown
To you all I tell my secret. It feels like I'm about to die.
I'm sitting here thinking of what could have been, and it's making me break down and cry.
My kids think that daddy's just tired, my wife says that this too shall pass.
It's been three years since it first started hurting, but this month has put me on my ass.
I'm sorry to be such a downer, not like the prime you've known in the past
I just wish that I knew the rubric, but some mystery remains till the last.
I was raised with the ten commandments, far too many at some point I've broke.
Biggest fear, to be near, the cusp but still damned. My attempts to do good are a joke.
Pull it together man, just go to bed. In the morning get up try again.
Not even sure why I bothered to share this, but thank you for listening dear fren.
It appears just the act of typing, inner voice disecting each line.
Has already helped with perspective. It will be what it is, and that's fine.