>>5255

No worries! We get what we get when we get it and need it most. we are your subconscious! AND You are a role in my movie where I am the STAR and i am a character in yours where you are the STAR! IT really is the most complex yet simple mysterious equation that I don’t know if I will ever fully understand. I think your PHI overlay upon your life is an interesting theory and the golden ratio and the golden rule are indeed clues. I have thot I want to go back and read too, funny cuz that was right before Strange made that post about a post being an OLd version of self … I thot that same thing. That if I read back some things I have written here, I may not agree or my perspective has changed to where I’d wish I’d chosen different words…. really the Now is all we have. Also Free will- what a beautiful beautiful law. You choose to listen to my words or not. Words of others can be clues but really really and truly your own are all you have to make moves (movies) in your own life.

Some rhymes I wrote last year (I’ll tell ya constantly tripping on how these words are reflected in this adventure here) : future proves past in my own little life like wha?!?

You are just an actor in a play

The sculpture with the clay

The chosen one that knows the way

The programer

Protagonist

Director and Antagonist

Make up your mind matrix

Don’t let it loop or play tricks

Because youre the soul(sole)(sol) controller

Of this temporary template

The cosmic 1s and 0s

On a journey with 1000 faces

On a mission like Dinero

On the defense like Shapiro

Vigilant like a kung fu hero

Do your due dillegence

Live life like a pilgrimage

Respect GOd given privileges

Thumbs up, it’s up to you, up in smoke or up to the truth to set us free

from wounded knees and slavery,

keep the peace,

we’re reaping seeds sewn over eons and centuries,

See our species ween off of mind control tendencies

It’s passé

On a leach

Let’s let freaks fly flags unique to individuals

WE seek to speak indivisible

Thru ALL people’s sequels

WE look thru your eyes like peepholes

Seeing the beauty like BEHOLD!

What a beautiful world we have available to mold: when fears disappear all we have left is Soul

And in each other we are all reflected

Inextricably electrically connected….

Hope that helps! Also if you still just scanning lol! No worries! Maybe it can help another anon. There really is so much info on here hard to catch it all (i read every word, tho that is my autistic speciality- every ONE has different capabilities even tho we are all one- what a beautiful paradox!!

We truly need us ALL to get to where we are going)

Also shout out to Lucky (Val) who is my fellow female on here, a guy in slang terms but a lady no doubt.

Light on anon!

Forgive yourself and you are forgiven.

>>5269

Ooo0ph, Thor I am sorry. Love and lust is so confusing. We are indeed only humans after all. We make mistakes. I honor you and your ‘ripping the bandaid’off honesty. Even though it is painful I think kind of candor needs to happen in relationships more (but hey I’ve been single for 8 years now so this honesty thing it hasn’t worked for me just yet)

I have been the other woman a couple of times. It was not my greatest moments (I have forgiven myself) and in my defense once was only once and it wasn’t totally known by me (ah alcohol) and they were a new relationship - when I told him I was sorry and he should be honest with her to start the relationship off right he thot that would be a bad idea- maybe so, I dont know I am too honest it’s true - that really is a hard one. White lies or omitting certain realities for the sake of the greater good? Like you say I have seen too many relationships grow sour and live in resentment because one or the other is not fully happy or honest with themselves about who they are (if you are someone who likes the stability of a relationship but ALSO freedom maybe there is someone out there for you that could

Understand that? And love you for you!?)

The second time seemed very fated (even a psychic told

Me i would meet a Spanish man) oh Lordy was that the hottest most beautiful thing I had ever experienced in way too long. Because of the language barrier I didn’t know until I was smitten that he had a wife, I should have known by the tender way he would wake up with me in the night and help me find and put on my clothes that had been thrown off earlier … that that was the caring nature of a new father) it’s hard because I don’t regret it. When I saw him again a year later I had learned better Spanish and told him that I could not do it again unless his wife knew. He was like: ohhh no she would kill me!! There are people I know that have “open relationships” I thot if they could then I could feel ok about our affair. I tried to not go there but alas in the end we did once more… my ego self was horny and pissed that I haven’t had love or that kind of passion in years and I was like : fuck it. but of course, because of the deception it was nothing like the year before. I ain’t gonna cum if I’m thinking about your wife and daughters!!

Ick.

I see why people choose to have secret affairs, it makes it hotter and less guilt and suffering for those being deceived.

But if we are talking about true true enlightenment here… this way cannot go on. honesty really is the best policy even if it hurts.

I have heard about our human brethren in 4th density having multiple loves at once. Maybe that is where we are headed. When we know we cannot ever OWN somebody and we are sovereign unto our own selves we can enjoy another (or many) sovereign self’s. For now, for me, one is enough! Still looking :) and learning to trust.

My heart is with you in this hard time Thor! Be proud of yourself for being honest. I pray for her heart as well. Maybe someday you will both see the lessons you have for each other.

>>5272

Mordo I don’t think so he said, lucky your one heck of a guy (paraphrasing) thot lucky was you. Your doing great! :)