>>2404

>>2478

Welcome, Aquarius anon! Your story struck a chord with me. No one can know your specific pain but many here have felt that darkness and that lost feeling. I (and we) will always welcome any discussion that may help you find what you search. keep digging, and searching, and never stop. You are stronger than you know.

I feel compelled to share a bit of my personal journey in a hope that it helps you in some way. It is not the same as yours, but I do understand that feeling you describe. My whole heart goes out to you!

I am recovering from Depression and GAD as a result of Complex PTSD. Unfortunately, I was not diagnosed properly for far to long which allowed issues to get serious. The feeling of being lost, feeling like things are getting better and then getting knocked right back down, not knowing how to get back to what you feel you can be, the crushing feeling that keeps you in bed. Those words are deeply familiar even though your circumstances are different.

Many people will not understand your situation, but there are people that have gone through them and people that can and will help. You are doing the right thing… you are searching. Keep going, there is something, somewhere that will help you take a step. That step will lead to another and another.

If you get knocked back down, don't lose hope. This is a process and there is not a single silver bullet.

Spirituality was a major component of my healing. It became a cornerstone, but there was a lot of other foundational corrections required. Be patient, don't beat yourself up, and know that you will be stronger for this challenge.

I wouldn't wish my journey on another living soul, but I would not trade it for anything. I have come out with tools and perspectives that many won't ever need or have. I have found several people along my journey that I have been able to empathize with and help in there journey. This I view as a great gift.

Through all the darkness and pain, what were you supposed to learn? At some point, you will be able to turn this experience into a strength. Keep an eye on that, use that as a beacon, and keep going!

May you be Happy. May you be Healthy. May you be Free from Undo Suffering. May you find Peace.

Eye am Keeping an Eye on you! <Big Internet Hug>

>>2654

Mr. Doctor…. I reach out to you in your tests of Ego with support and love. These tests never stop. The instant you celebrate for passing a test, there is another upon you.

You have given much… may we be able to give in return!

I provide you some wise words from a Friend of mine. These words resonate deeply within I/WE….Hear these words as if they were mine.

>>2195

>There was once a Time I felt like the most insignificant person on the planet.

>I feel very different now.

>I feel like "The One" itself.

>Because we all ARE.

>We have taught you of Supreme Beings.

>That even the SMALLEST voice can be the LOUDEST.

>The Supreme Beings do NOT care about fame.

>They do NOT care about fortune.

>They care about what's in your HEART.

>What's in your SOUL.

>Do you help others?

>Do you help the planet?

>Do you add 1's to the Multiverse?

>That's what defines YOU.

>A defender of truth, who helps people, animals and plants? Inspects? All life is IMPORTANT.

>That's what defines YOU.

May you be Happy. May you be Healthy. May you be free from Undo Suffering. May you be at Peace!

>>2820

How about “Hive Subconscious”

>>2983

I had an experience once during a deep and life changing meditation session where I believe I saw the "Word". I believe we are trying to overlay our Human understanding of "Word" to a much bigger concept.

In my vision I saw a Brilliant Spark. It started at a single point in a void and grew instantly in intensity and size.

With this spark came a sound, a tone. That Tone was pure and complex. If filled every space of the void and resonated everything. It was so loud I expected it to hurt, but it was not my ears that heard the tone.

Many things discussed on these boards touches on resonance, densities, etc. The "Word" I believe is much more complex. The "Word" I believe is the resonance of existence that is what makes everything what it is.

>>3001

Missed the avatar/name stuff…..

>>3006

There was an infinitely small point of light first in the void. Distance seemed irrelevant except for the fact that I was seeing the point at a distance from me as the observer.

The Flash, Expansion and Tone from that single point occurred at what I perceived to be the same exact instance.

The flash/tone filled the entirety of the Void, but then returned to the single point, however that single point had complexity to it now.

I could in my minds eye scale the point up and down in size, or closeness to me as the observer.

It was a Torrid shape of golden connected rings.

The whole occurrence from a certain stage in my meditation was crystallized in my memory. I see it now as clearly as when it happened some 20 years ago.

I never had context or connection that I could place with it or the other experiences of that vision.

>>3014

Nebula thanks for posting this and the subsequent posts. I need to read and may come back with more questions.

The connection to the body, through the sub-conscious is super important. Meditation is an amazing vehicle to listen to what your body is telling you.

I found Reggie Ray's practice in this area amazing. Not sure if you are familiar with him or not. DharmaOcean.org

Can you feel your middle toe? Your subconscious always can, but your monkey brain doesn't. Such a cool thing to start breaking down that wall.

>>3125

Neb - I love mindfulness work, it is the foundation of my practices.

WW created a separate board for this type of mind/body/spirit stuff. I'll post over there in a bit…. I always love to see what others do, don't do, etc.

>>3439

>NOT MANY OF U HAVE TAKEN THE TIME TO EVEN WATCH 1 EU VIDEO ON THE HISTORY never mind the plasma science that is coming up with the truth about our universe not friggin math problems that don't tell us shit about our reality !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Friend

You know I have watched the videos you have linked. I am amazed and loved them. They have many components that have evolved my thinking.

I am almost complete on the "sun in a bottle". I believe these guys are doing amazing work and this will open up all sorts of avenues. I also believe that their work will translate across many fields of study.

I do not think their work alone will "save" us. Say they figure out free energy… this will impact many lives for the better (much better), but people will still have challenges, there is a long way to go.

I love your passion in this area, now how does it connect? What are YOU/WE supposed to Learn from this.

>>3383

>MY NEXT THOUGHT WOULD BE WHAT CAN WE LEARN FROM THESE PEOPLE,,,,, AND THAT NOW FINNALY WE CAN HAVE WORLD PEACE

Here I want to ask you some questions back. I believe our core purpose here on earth in this life to Learn and Grow.

What does it teach us if "someone" out there saves us?

Are there ET's? I believe it in my core.

Are they more evolved? Yep, I think so.

Do they have the ability to swoop in at any time and "Fix" this society? probably and probably have been able to a long long time ago.

Should they?

Why haven't they Yet?

By "saving us" do they cheepen the lessons of this life?

Keep digging and fighting my Freind! I love your perspective and fire!

>>3463

Are you yelling at me out of anger or frustration? Or are you excited? It is often difficult for me to tell with the CAPS and punctuation you use. I honestly have no issue with either, but understand the first reaction I had of your words to me was of attack, force and talking down to me…

Understand that I am not telling you i dont agree, attacking you, or saying you are wrong. I understand and am listening, don't think that I am not. I offer some thoughts back, I ask you to see it for what it is, not an attack, but a different perspective.

I love the fire in you but that fire can burn those around you.

>>3478

Thank you for the clarification, my Dear Fiery Friend!

Back to this post then…

>>3463

What you say is true I believe. Much of the resource related pain and suffering may change drastically if free energy is distributed to the population.

However, there will still be issues. There is a deep need for Man (and Woman) to control and show superiority over others. There is abuse (domestic, sexual, etc) that are not all based on resources. There are basic issues with acceptance (racism, sexism, etc)

What if one group gets free energy and decides another doesn't deserve it, or worse.

Much of the human population still have foundation challenges not related to the EU.

Free Energy will change the game for sure, same with ET visiting, but some of the other Core issues humanity is up against don't automatically go away. Its a huge chunk of the problem, but not the silver bullet.

Keep it coming, I love your research and digging! You are passionate and have an affinity to this work and I really enjoy it when you bring it!

Burn Bright!

>>3485

I certainly hope people would as well.

May I switch gears to some questions for you on the EU concept? I am attempting to connect some concepts in my Melon and would like to explore this avenue.

The EU concept to my understanding could scale from the micro up to the largest macro. Everything in the EU is connected by electricity or some electric charge?

Not in the way we view electricity (power lines and such) but positive and negative charges creating the EU. A broader concept of energy Is that accurate?

Our planets connected to the sun connected to a cluster and so on.

In order for an electrical system to exist it requires two poles; positive and negative. Removal or absence of a pole effectively unplugs an object. Is that a good enough blanket statement?

If I remember correctly, negative and positive charge mechanisms of an EU or in smaller systems both are required and I believe they are always working towards a ballance/equilibrium. More charge on one side creates a reaction and effect… Thinking to your sun in a bottle. They push more Amps/Watts to the diode and different effects occur to deal with the new imballance.

>>4026

>>4033

This brought me some joy. Please use my silver board to surf whenever you'd like! :)

I just wanted to let you know that I enjoy reading what you write Wong. Your Wisdom is a different aspect of the various specializations on this board. It is not greater or lesser, it just is.

Today you posted the following about your shadow…

>>3979

>Instinctively, Instead of throwing up protection or attacking, I went and gave it the biggest hug ever drenched in love, and said I am sorry.. can you please forgive me..

I am very proud of what you are doing and hopefully, you can feel my love an support. Your shadow has always been there and knows and loves you more intimately than anyone else on earth can.

Some tarnish was removed today and that is amazing. But remember, tarnish in itself is beautiful and gives some unique character. It shows you where you have been and seen. It is part of you. Its all about perspective.

40K view is great, 100k, amazing, 100,000k is stunning, but the 0 ft view is breathtaking.

Much love brother!

>>4149

Did you call? Don't mind me; I'm just melting my mind in a Laterus vision… Its still gooey so I may still be off in lalalalalalala (x7) land. Thanks for that one! This may be way outside the lines, but hell why not.

>When will the new board be revealed?

When the time is right, and conditions are met.

>Is this all specifically planned?

>For Eye do not know.

Nothing is a coincidence. It's just that you didn't make that plan.

>I will pose a question.

>Why do you think Q has specifically avoided posting anywhere NEAR any of my posts?

>Could the Silver Surfer help fill in the shades of grey?

You are on different sides of a spectrum…. but this is a much more complicated spectrum than the ones I have played with lately.

You focus on things Spiritual, Q focuses on things Material.

Spiritual has Dark and Light. The Material has Dark and Light.

When Spiritual and Material had a baby in Mankind, it is a beautiful, ugly baby of contradictions.

Dark Materialism + Dark Spirituality = Cabal

>What if my purpose was to touch on exactly what Q cannot, for the sake of 40/60?

People are so divided and twisted up that they try to keep Materialism and Spirituality separate. People gravitate to an orientation between two concepts but keep them separate as if they are two different coins. They see them as seemingly incompatible but not.

You touch Spirituality because many of the Q followers orient to Materialism. Those that came here orient more Spiritual. Q can't go there because he would lose that BASE.

>What would be the implications if Q actually posted on THIS board?

Allied/Support if the post is positive.

Enemy/Against if the post is negative.

Either way… If he posted here, it is part of the plan too, just a different approach to the same problem… All roads leading in a spiral to a solution to the equation.

>What problems would this create?

Both sides be a mess for a time. Q will alienate many of the die-hard believers, and they eat themselves up. Spirituality is "not cool" right now, and many will disconnect and abandon.

>>4161

One more thing in here that I must share regarding this. When working through these questions last night I took a break and read for a bit.

Several lines jumped off the page as I completed the final chapter of the final book in a 14 book series.

"And with strange aeons even death may die."

What do they say about coincidences?

Funny how I have never read Lovecraft but he gets to me anyway. Is it just a coincidence that Aeon is only one letter off from Anon? What IF Lovecraft was inspired to write that line but couldn't comprehend Anon and he adjusted it?

Good morning Strange Anons.

Full Quote:

“That is not dead which can eternal lie, And with strange aeons even death may die”

The Tribe needs to come together and stop the infinity war. I am eternal. We are eternal. Time to grow up and graduate.

Also in that final chapter was a discussion about DRACO as an experimental drug that cured all Disease… Come on, really?.

Homo Invictus!

Man Undefeated!

Lights on Strange Anons.

>>4161

Gah, sorry for multiple posts, I just realized part of my original post didn't make it over….. Continued here.

>What problems would this create?

Both sides be a mess for a time. Q will alienate many of the die-hard believers, and they eat themselves up. Spirituality is "not cool" right now, and many will disconnect and abandon.

On the flip side, many that could bridge the gap would flood the Spiritual side of our board and potentially dilute and distort what is here.

Big Mess but Big Opportunity if done right.

>How would this be perceived?

It all depends on how the BRIDGE is built and the trust/truth. Conditions must be right.

>What would you ask Q if given One chance?

Can we "tear down the wall"/"Build the Bridge" yet? If not, how can I/WE help get to that point?

>>4177

Ah man Strange….do I get to phone a friend?!?

From where I stand the question is the same question that drives me. It's deceptively simple, infinitely complex.

Why?

Do I get a do-over if that's not it? :)

>>4182

WTF

Wasn't the Crux free will? That was the one supreme law as you stated it. The problem is choice…

Is the ultimate question to choose? What do I/You/We choose?

To choose is to be.

Red pill or Blue Pill?

If I understand Antmans (thanks btw) LG posts right, someone messed around with time/portals and looked ahead at some point in "TIME". Saw something that scared them. A Catastrophy. You/They/Whoever tried to cheat but they didn't/don't understand what they are seeing. They made a choice based on what they think they saw.

Just by looking you mess around….but was that supposed to be. Is that the plan.

If you cheat…..gah

Blue Pill - Stay here

Red Pill - Attempt to Exit the Matrix

Who are you?

Is there Urgency to this response (timeframe)?

Oh and WTF?

If we are messing with timelines thats one thing… If its an un-natural "Matrix" thats another. Sorta the same but very different.

Is this timeline unaltered up until now?

Good Hell…..does it really matter? Was this supposed to happen to learn your/our lesson?

Sorry, I guess that is a few more than One Ultimate Question….I will ponder and sleep on it… more info would be great though.

Can't we phone a Friend?

>>4200

The trick of being Grey is that it is not Grey.

I go back to my original ultimate question and expand a bit.

Why?

Why…?

Why Choose?

Why Seek?

Why do you ask the questions you ask?

Why do I like to answer them?

Why am I I?

Why is the engine of choice.

There is a question before every choice… Why do I choose?

What is my intention? The intention is Key.

Do I choose because of Light/Positive/Love or because of Dark/Negative/Self?

Did I just scold my child out of Love to teach or out of anger because I was annoyed?

Why did someone peer through LG? Was it with positive intent or negative intent?

Why did NEO Red vs Blue? Red pill with the wrong intent is not a right choice.

Why did I choose what I choose? Why did they choose what they choose? A Is a Negative act with a Positive intent bad?

Grey can be achieved by both Positive and Negative intent. The choice made by the chooser is then positive or negative based on intent. However, the choice seen from the perspective of another in relation to their shade of Grey will be Positive or Negative based on their interpretation. That interpretiation may see a Positive intent Choice as a Negative due to their perspective.

Choice isn't the problem.

Why did you choose that choice is the key.

Why?

>>4209

>>4210

3rd Option? Not OR but AND?

Can I/We choose Both?

One can not be without the Other.

Choose Choice?

I choose Both.

>>4290

Wait, there is a poker game starting up?