>I'm misunderstood.
>Goodbye.
I care about you as the person you are regardless of your view's. I choose to address a few things with you and hope that these words are received with the intent I write them in. Tough love and an outside perspective are sometimes required.
Self Inflicted Wounds Don't Count.
This is a favorite phrase of someone close to me that helped me through some of my darker times. I was creating my own pain and then frustrated that I was in so much pain. When doing it, I could not see it for what it was.
In my view, this is what you have created for yourself here.
I am now 5 1/2 hours into the Passio stuff you recommended. I am learning a lot, but I still do not agree with everything the way he views it. However, one of the pieces that is clear to me in that content is the ownership of yourself, your thoughts, your feelings, and your actions. You have the Right to your choices and actions, and you own that right and everything that comes with it.
If I look back to last week right before started your alter trajectory, the board had several of us flowing ideas off of each other in cooperation. There was good information and discussion. At some point, it felt to me that you took a hard leap in logic. That leap in logic made it so that "flow" disconnected for me. I could not engage because a new barrier was put up… There was nothing that I could grab into because it was such a dramatic shift.
To illustrate I will use Letters as Concepts:
The Board and anon's involved where building understandings of concepts.
A - B - C - D = Fairly well-known concepts. As the collective grew, new concepts were solidified.
E - F - - I = The group was evolving and a leap in logic to "I" was ok because we could figure out how to connect back.
E -G - H -> I = We could work together to reverse engineer and fill in the gap.
I - J - - T = We were flowing and then it feels like you introduced "T" with no logic to connect. This shift was dramatic and significant.
As we worked to understand and figure out what "T" was, it feels to me that then you hoped to "V"
There is no way to connect the logic and you did not offer stepping stones. You stood on "V" and I had no way to trust that "V" is true. or of good intent, or even if "V" was actually "5". There was no way to connect the puzzle pieces.
So when you say….
>I'm misunderstood.
Yes, you are, but that is your responsibility to close that gap. You can not get frustrated with anyone here because we could not close that gap. It was your gap and your logic leap. If you believe "V" to be correct that is your right, I will never challenge it, however, if you want other people to understand how you got there, that is your burden.
When people started to challenge or question your stance on "V" your response was defiant and absolute. You considered yourself correct and that was that. And now you decide to walk away.
See the wound for what it is and from where it came. Own it; you chose it. You can choose to heal the wound too. If the goodby from this board is your path for now, so be it, but I know our paths will cross in Time and I look forward to sharing some Time again.
I hope these words find you well and some of them hit where I want them to hit with Love. Much love bud! DOBE!