What is Ego?

Ego is desire to get pleasure and satisfaction, Ego is desire to protect and boost your self esteem by behaving irrationally, selfishly, dishonestly, etc.

What happens when you cancel your Ego?

You do not get pleasures that you used to get, that come from arrogance, dominance, hurting others, 'destroying' others (even your enemies), self aggrandizement, showing off, getting praise, boasting, etc.

You do not protect your vulnerable self esteem by irrational and dishonest behavior.

What happens to you then?

You feel bad.

You open up your self esteem, your soul to attacks, to being hurt.

This is the noble path of life.

>>3251

I noticed that my motivation for posting was showing off and getting praise - service to self.

Recently I started changing it to service to others. But old habits don't go away immediately

Now I try to post thinking what would be helpful to others.

It gives me confidence, now I write important truths unapologetically, now I have no shame and fear of taking too much onto myself, because now my motivation is sharing my valuable experience and knowledge with others. My only concern is - I don't want to cause harm.

Share with us what you think will be valuable and important to us.

>>3273

Deep thoughts. It will take time to properly digest all of it

I would like to share some thoughts.

>If you chase the ego around and around, you're missing the point. It is a part of You

Canceling (or rather taming) ego is important for me for one reason. Ego pushes me in the wrong direction, I want to be a true master of my life.

>I just sought knowledge to seek it, and was in the process of just Awakening. I was determined to get to the bottom of things. Only there is no bottom. Pulling from fractal theory, every time we learn something, more will exist.

You may not believe or accept, but I believe pain and suffering melts logical knowledge into intuitive knowledge, wisdom. By 'logical knowledge' I mean theories in the form of worlds. Intuitive knowledge is deep understanding of things.

Intuitive understanding is case-by-case, it knows nuance, exceptions, it has sense of scale, importance, necessity, applicability, it deals with actual understanding instead of words.

Your input is valuable, and it may be valuable in the ways you do not foresee. Think Butterfly effect

Trauma is a moment of extraordinary unbearable pressure, which pushes a person into 1) submission or 2) using defense mechanisms or 3) resisting or 4) maybe other things.

This pain and pressure remain in your psyche your whole life and your whole life you will use one of the above mentioned responses.

In order to get rid of it you need to reenter the moment of pressure in your imagination.

There is no need to remember what exactly happened in the past.

Simply imagine a traumatic experience. For example everybody is laughing at you.

Then endure all the pressure and pain.

Crucially important: do not submit, do not use defense mechanisms, do not fight, resists, look for excuses.

There shouldn't be any reaction in your mind. Clear your mind.

Simply feel the pain and suffering in your body.

Do not react, Endure.

It may make you want to make deep sighs, yawn or cry. Crying is OK. With tears pain leaves your body.

Be merciful to yourself. Do bring in too much suffering in short period of time. Do it with measure.

I do not feel the difference compared to yesterday or the last week. But compared to half a year ago or a year ago I make noticeable progress.

I don't care what other people think, I don't notice many things that I used to be insecure about, I have a lot of patience and calamity, my health improved, my thoughts become more orderly, I feel more freedom in life, people are not as intimidating to me as they used to be.

(I probably will be too busy in the coming days)

>>3298

*Do NOT bring in too much suffering in short period of time.