My friends, my fellow truth seekers.

Have you heard about the Defense Mechanisms (of mind)?

>In psychoanalytic theory, defence mechanisms are psychological strategies brought into play by the unconscious mind to manipulate, deny, or distort reality in order to defend against feelings of anxiety and unacceptable impulses…

Take a look at a few examples of defense mechanisms https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Defence_mechanisms

Do you see that deep problems in our soul/subconscious sometimes provoked by adverse incidents in real life cause distortions in our mind and behavior

Do you see that fighting in your mind and conflicts in real life are not as important as addressing those 'demons' in your soul

Perceive this:

• Certain forces in your subconscious invoke pain/suffering.

• Defense mechanisms decrease the pain at the cost of distorting your perception of reality

• If you remove defense mechanism from your mind it will bring back the pain/suffering

• Feel the suffering in your body. Endure, endure, endure. Consume the suffering.

• It will weaken the 'demon' in your subconscious, its influence will diminish.

How to consume the suffering? Meditation.

I don't know how other people do it, for me there is no right way of meditation.

But the point is that subconsciousness influences your thoughts and actions though your body.

And when you direct your attention at your body it intercepts the influence of subconsciousness.

Try to direct your attention at various areas of your body and note sensations of your body

It makes me feel a lot of suffering but I have to go through it.