>>4011

Naww thanks for saying that.

this may surprise you but I was something of a class clown in my youth. I have no use for such ridiculousness now but that lingering sentiment of conflating getting people to laugh with that feeling of acceptance we all foolishly desire so, all in all blah blah moving on.

Joking by the way: I live for ridiculousness. All I do is crack jokes and LARP. Too bad I realize it's not real.. wait.

first of all, Yes our child selves definitely knew what the hell was going on way.

Too bad we didn't realize it was all real..

(but now we do)

I wonder if kids today with Iphones handed to them in Utero will have the foresight to jot down some quick notes their walkie talkie of choice thinking, hey maybe one day I'll want to remember some of this?

Probably not, kids are pretty dum.

no lie though, watching some of those "kids react" videos on the tube is more illuminating that you would have ever expected.

Lil munchkins say the damnedest things lol. Nothing earth shattering, so don't go digging for no reason, but good to know if one is ever in the mood for something.. Light.

re: voices and vibrations, my mother was the choir pianist when I was a wee lad so I was hanging around the choir practices alot.. and later joined the choir myself, a well as acapella quartets, things like that.

my first times connecting those "buzzy, electric".. I called them "brain squirts", so, take that as you will, for what it's worth. But yea, my first time realizing that, my brain squirts happened ALOT during music, especially choir and church music, is how I came to realize that those brain squirts come from God or his angels, or one is vibrating on the celestial level, I don't know, I didn't have the right vocabulary to put these thoughts in order, but if nothing else, through music and the vibrations created by HARMONY, especially through human voices, we can "feel" the presence of God. It was something I was struggling at the time, trying to "hear" or "feel" God, yekno.

Only to find out, I had been "feeling" him trying to call the whole time, just didn't realize it was his number.

I keep a acapella CD in my car and like to sing loud and proud with windows firmly rolled up, and whats nice about singing along to a song with, you know, bass tenor alto soprano, all the individal parts to the harmony. I know as a woman you will probably never know the joy and, just raw primordial rush one gets when holding down the bass line in harmony with choir of voices.. and thats a shame lol.

Tenor range singers like Bruno Mars are all the rage these days, and for good reason. That boy is DAMN talented.. but I feel that people discount how nice a low baritone or bass can FEEL, whether singing or listening.

Plus, its basically like having 4 different ways to sing along, and of course (if youre singing in the car racing down the freeway), nobody is going to stop you from "switching lanes" jumping from voice to voice willy nilly.

tl;dr Wong like choral music because harmonizing.

>>4008

that does sound intense..

I would be willing to bet it was probably similar to the experience of being a single voice, standing among fellows as part of a much greater ONE (choir, that is), all singing in perfect harmony…

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no doubt your experience was on a much deeper level. I bet what happened after was more fun than a church potluck too ;)

I can totally relate to the picture, in a couple distinct ways; first, that feeling of detaching, cell by cell when you first start to disengage, really does feel like "wings" spreading out, doesnt it? its not like "pop! pop", more like, unfurling a leg thats been asleep. or a butterfly breaking out of its cocoon, slowly but surely, everything in due time.

Then of course, are the actual wings…

I'm going to admit this one time and one time only, and on this obscure side of the board because I'm here already, because I need to put it out once in the world before I put it to rest:

I am super uncomfortable with the word love, for cultural reasons.

It's not a big deal, so lets not make it one.

I tried, at first, to I guess imitate what I assumed to be the culture here, that is of spreading love and joy in words, like you were getting paid.

It was quite beautiful actually, to be quite honest, and I hope this board never changes.

I do hope one day I will change as well..

but since my first week or so here, I decided I'm just going to do me, without being rude about it.

To me, the fact that we are here together, when we could be doing anything else with infinite choice of possibility around you, and yet we all choose to be here, to me, that is love.

But again, that is also me seeing the world through my mothers culture, so please don't ever feel like I would ask anyone to change.

every culture has its good and bad, the one my mother put in me is very ..stoic, especially when it comes to saying the words "I Love You".

Watching a Kpop Idol group might have you thinking differently,.. but I assure you that, that is not necessarily an honest image of that particular society (more like, some kind of grotesque psyops, as far as I am concerned.. Kpop that is).

Korean and Japanese culture (and I assume China and other traditionally Confucian/sino-centric societies as well, but I dont speak their languages so couldn't say for sure) have some really really complicated systems for addressing "the other", depending on age and role in society (teachers, for example), and it's all basically in order to avoid calling the other by their first name, if at all possible. this typically doesn't apply as much to youth peer groups (unless of course, they are not in the same grade, in which the older "sempai" is God, and you are just waiting for next year when you get to play big dick in the zoo for a minute) or within a family, but outside of that, it is borderline rude to just blurt out someones name.

The only worse thing you could do is call that person "You".

So saying "YOU and the donkey YOU rode in on.." is actually quite tricky to translate, without sounding like a turd.

There are not enough anally case-specific pronouns in the English Language to really explain this well, so I will just stop trying here, because I have officially forgot why I started talking about all this.

..

So yea, Love.

I wish I wasn't this way, but it is what it is.

But believe me when I say, it is nothing short of INSPIRING, coming from my point of view, to see such openly lovely people, without a hint of sarcasm or, I don't know, status quo? implied in that giving of Love, you guys just SAY it, and it is!

Amen.

Truly inspiring and I try. I've tried and it felt awkward, and I felt bad for feeling awkward, so I keep trying, in my own time.

So, Antman, this has basically been a really really ass backwards and up the colon round about way to say:

Likewise.