You are so beautiful! Your words are so intimate to me. I feel like you are talking to my inner self, you know the self only EYE know and hear. I hear you on the eating thing I have had those thoughts too but dismissed them because you know people would think I'm crazy thinking I could live without eating, so I eat.

OH last thing, if you are having trouble activating the pineal gland, try humming or singing even. Think gregorian chants.

try saying all the vowles AEIOU.. you kind of end up with that "ommmm" sound right?

get it at exactly the right pitch (by experimenting) and you will know it is the right pitch by how your third eye reacts to the vibrations. who needs bianural beats when you got your own vibrating subwoofer?

Again, try to "aim" the vibration to the third eye area between the eyebrows and keep it there during meditation, and it could help.

OK now im done.

I have done this exact thing in the caves in the hot springs with my girlfriend. We hugged each other and tucked our necks into each others and we started making the ommmm sound and others till we were harmonic and it was and is the most powerful thing I have ever done with another person. I felt the vibration completely overwhelm all our senses and we were transported to another realm. You should try it some day it will change you forever, it was magical.

I love you brother and I care about you.

PS the picture is what I imagine my soul looks like when it opens up out of me. >>3979