ok frens allys now i really know some of u trying to drive me over the edge of insanity with the RA references and the specific Marvel comics (Antmen) triggering anxiety and fear. i just got back on heavy meds. i don't know how to get rid of the fear "programming" and i will go back to lurking only for the next weeks. and i'm fighting back i asked to book a consult with a shrink for the axiety problem just to frens not to the shills: they have 20 week waiting list….meaning i get real help this year. i just lurk in the background for now.