I was hesitant, because as a long time lurker from years back, one had to always keep a well regulated bullshit meter on standby at all times to keep from being swept away by nonsense.

Whatever has been happening the last couple weeks.. something in the air is electric. This thread in particular I have been following but again, keeping to myself since you all here seem to have a handle on everything, but thoughts and ideas I have discerned from this thread have consumed my mind the last couple days, then today, this happened. I would never have noticed it save for the fact that right under it the word "FUEL CAP LOOSE" was screaming for my attention. I should also mention the profound moments of understanding that would sweep in and out of my head before I had a chance to register, and of course all this while I was driving on autopilot, so the fact that my car was literally flagging my attention to the 77,111 miles listed on the meter..

I do not believe in coincidences; that has been clear to me from the start.

This though.. I don't know what it means but I know it pertains to my activity and knowledge gained from this board.

None of this makes sense.. but I have faith. Bullshit meter or not, some times you can't expect to understand something before you believe it; perhaps faith is then the prerequisite to understanding? I don't know much but I cannot express my gratitude. I will keep learning and keep praying.. even if I don't say much, I am with all who stand in the light and against those powers that be.

Thanks for listening.. and speaking for all the other silent anons that I know are reading this as well, we are with you!

The other is related to my personal spiritual journey, an "avatar" of sorts I suppose? Thought I would leave it here as well.

On the topic of music: Music has played a huge part of my spiritual journey. I have a theory that my pineal gland has been irreversibly damaged by my lifestyle and thus, it is hard for me to communicate spiritually with me in a way that I can consistently feel, except through music. Bach and classical music of course, but also, when I first started waking up, I noticed music playing on the alternative roq station (as opposed to top 40, hiphop) in my area would ring especially true, probably very similar to how you guys will try find clues and coincidences with the Marvel movies. Nirvana. Foo Fighters. Sublime. Muse. The Killers. The White Stripes. Hell even Misfits and Marilyn Manson. Although it makes perfect sense, in retrospect, that these gentlemen were preaching the truth before I knew there was a truth to know. When was the last time you heard and understood the lyrics to "7 Nation Army"?? Signs from God are EVERYWHERE if you look for them. IMO Sublime and Nirvana in particular are not shy about references to ..whatever. Just based on the words they chose to name their bands, go figure. OK, Thats all from me. Keep up the good fight yall, Lord knows I am trying as well.

>>1735

Thanks anon. I actually remember reading what you had wrote and felt immense joy, both for you and as it related to my story. Being completely honest, I used Methamphetamines for a long time as a crutch to focus my thoughts, instead of doing it the "hard" way. Works amazing by the way, but there are certain pitfalls.. more than simply the inherent dangers that are widely known.. and overblown in my opinion. The anti meth psyop was a great success, for better or for worse. With respect to the "real" dangers of meth, why would meth be so heavily demonised by those in power? Is something I thought about for a while, but I digress; Meth can focus the untrained mind far beyond what it would normally be capable of, but the substance itself does not discern from malignant and benign beings and of course, if one has not spent significant time learning the skill of discernment (which most often comes through meditation) then fucking with meth is like asking any random demonic force to come and play with a defenseless child. Usually lust hits and grabs hold.. have you ever heard of meth addicts that will masturbate for 12 hours straight? In other words, meth will either give you superhuman free will to do what YOU need to get done, or, completely strip you of your free will for the duration of the high ..anyways, that all being said, I decided it probably wasn't wise to depend on a chemical substance, for anything.. and it turns out there are consequences. It's like starting from square one, but what can one do but laugh it off and try to work with what one is left with. Why do I share this? because while drugs including marijuana can certainly give one access to powers one does not normally possess, but please don't be naive. Like they always says: You have more than you know. Smoke weed to help you meditate by all means, but don't ever let yourself think you need anything more than what we are already equipped with to talk to God. Even with a clearly defined purpose (I used to pray before I injested meth, helped set the right tone from the start, to work FOR me and not take me for a ride, etc), all mind altering substances demand HUMILITY, or unless you are actively in the market to give your God given free will away, in which case I suppose its still better than having an IG account and being a consumer of the MSM. Specifically as it pertains to marijuana; the fact that THC in the system has a way of shutting down the process of dreaming has always given me pause. Just food for thought. Anyways Anon, I'm sure you already understood most of this without me having to say, pretty common sense no? Thanks again for your words of encouragement. Perhaps you're right and it is not as "irreversible" as I fear. If there are any others that have experience in these matters and can shed light, you have my ears. Keep seeking seekers.

>>1736

my apologies for the atrocious spacing. still new to this idea of actually putting thoughts into words on a board.

>>1738

Humbled you say.. Brother you have humbled me more than I can ever explain, but I'll try anyways: I have lurked the chans for over a decade now, and in that time I have posted a total of three times, ever. Why only three? well, as Chans are often ought to be, every single response without fail was a rude uncalled for personal attack that never addressed the content of my post. Shocking, I know. I want to say that I wasn't bitter. What kind of brainlet participates in a chan thread expecting a warm and fuzzy collective hug? Certainly not I, therefore, I CHOSE to believe that "posting is not my thing". LOOK AT THE WAY I WRITE. (thanks for praising my use of language by the way) I LOVE TO WRITE. OF COURSE IM DYING TO SHARE MY THOUGHTS.

bbbuBut the anons were dicks to me so fuck that.

ugh how embarassing..

But this board.. is like nothing I have ever experienced. YOU! My brother, you were the first kind response from a stranger on the internet I have EVER received.. be it 4chan, 2ch, 8ch, reddit, fucking, lakersground.com.. It's like your small act of kindness, that first response in which you shared your words of advice and encouragement, it tore down a dam that had been blocking something .. something.. in the way.. and that giant rant about the drugs just flowed out of me. Oh by the way, I tried what you said about visualizing decalcification during my most recent meditation just a little before I started writing this post, more on that in a bit, but your advice was heard brother and .. yea.. what can I say, good stuff. Good looking out sir. Much love.

>>1743

Dr. Strange.. My teacher, my ally, my friend. You of all beings understand how difficult it should have been for me, just now, to address you as such. Without even realizing it, I was not only scared to participate in the internet, I was silently being Judgemental of the very people I was simultaneously looking to for advice. It really is an insanely clever yet simple prison that we find ourselves trapped in..

I cannot even begin to fathom it, but if I can be so bold: The elephant that was tied down with a single piece of rope tied around its leg. The elephant could have easily broke the rope and walked free at anytime it pleased, but the BELIEF that the rope was unbreakable, a belief that was planted from an early age, kept the Elephant in the most effective prison of all: A prison of its own mind.

This story made me irrationally angry as a child.. imagine how I feel now. I don't know how the whole deception works, but I know that shit like harboring judgemental thoughts while mascarading as some kind of sick paragon of virtue and open-mindedness (yet too scared to man the keyboard because anon was a faggot that one time..) yea, in this new fucked up reality my instincts tell me that this kind of self deception is probably not going to work i my favor. Pathetic. I am truly not worthy.. and I apologize for my actions. Dr. Strange, all this goes without being said, but I feel compelled to write out my thoughts of all the other silent anons out there, reading this. I know many of you consider this something of a secret hobby.. which is perfectly understandable. 4chan gets a bad rap, not everyone gets it. Not everyone wants to. But you! You who finds themself here, in this thread, when you could have been anywhere else in the internet. Hell, Qresearch is right up the street, thats where most people end their search, and good for them I say~! Q needs all the help it can get, but something inside you told you to keep going, and now, your very presence on this particular bread means that you are part of a select few, with an important part to play in this dog and pony show they call reality. There are no coincidences. If you claim that, despite ones best efforts, you have neither seen nor heard, then I insist that the signs are out there, you just not looking right. They're not speaking fast, you're listening slow. Let go, friend! The choice is yours, as it always has been.

Now, Dr. Strange, regarding music: As it went, in between my last post and this current one, I curiously enough found myself meditating to Tool - Lateralus. It was actually my second time hearing it from front to end, the first time having been recently through this board. At the time I thought: very nice, as advertised. neat! All this is to say that, listening to Tool was not a premeditated act. How much can one "premediate" when browing a chan anyways? You just kind of, see where it takes you, no? Its one of the things I really love about message boards.. Anyways, Lateralus.

My fingers are still shaking.

I.. I'm not even going to try to put it into words.

And I know that this is just the beginning.

My God I feel the electricity.

You, all of you beautiful anons.. have illuminated an important part of the path, for all. May the light shine particularly bright for each and every one of you..

I have received so much, but given back almost nothing, so.. if I may, my humble contribution that I stumbled across the other day, while looking into the Chinese myth known as the Journey to the West. As you may have guessed I am of East Asian origin and so, learning about ancient Chinese religins and myths is an important part of my personal journey. Anyways, there is a line that reads

"Guanshiyin brings to submission the bear monster."

Bears are one of the key words or flags I look for in my personal research. Call it the third eye call it spiritual discernment, what have you, the way it works is when something catches my "eye" I pursue it. So, not knowing what to expect, I dumped the entire sentence "Guanshiyin brings to submission the bear monster." into google and gave it a whirl.

What popped up (the second result, to be exact) was.. curious, intriguing.. I don't know much but I know that this was not a random find..

Maybe one of you guys out there will be beter able deconstruct its meaning, to shed some more light.

And in the end, if it turns out that there is nothing here and/or it is something that has already been looked into.. my bad, I try.

thank you for accepting someone like me. it meant more to me than I realized, and could have realized.

hands still shaking.

Keep seeking seekers.

https://www.springfieldspringfield.co.uk/view_episode_scripts.php?tv-show=the-expanse-2015&episode=s02e12

>>1761

My pleasure, friend.

>>1765

..Say what?

I'm. First of all please don't stroke my ego like that, I just put it to bed.. …. wait what?

..ok before I even begin address what you said I feel compelled..

Ok full disclosure, not gonna lie, I haven't watched most of the Marvel movies, including Dr. Strange. Iron man 3? might have been my last one. How many years has it been? Swore off Hollywood and all that.. you understand. Yet here I now stand, about to watch me some fucking Disney movies

Lord have mercy. Laughing all god damn day hahahaha OK

I don't have unlimited time, unfortunately, give me a list to work on ranked in order of importance or whatever other order you deem best fit for someone that is pretty sure Iron man dudes name was uhm… not Jon Stewart.. uh.. TONY not parker.. STARK. Jesus. You get the idea.

I am a blank canvas, so

WHERE TO START CAPTAIN? MY BODY IS READY i guess, Rejoice!

The hell is going on.. I'm so confused.

>>1766

Thanks for your service anon. Fight on!

>>1785

I'll be back my friend. Thank you for everything thus far, and everything that is to come. Keep seeking seekers. Digits don't lie. Trust your intuition before your own intelligence. What do you think your intuition is in the first place?

As for me, I have a bunch of movies to watch. THE FATE OF THE WORLD and me/you/us watching some movies might be connected somehow. You bet your sweet ass.

that new bread smells good dunnit?

>>1797

Stop punishing yourself, you're basically doing your job for them, which, I suppose is kind of the point.