WW - that is wise advice on the detoxing. I can second the power of these disciplines to lift one out of the pit of despair.
We do know why the cabal loves alcohol so much and demonizes cannabis. I have read some pretty convincing stuff on how booze opens one up to dark entities like NOTHING else. Just think on this. How many got drunk and did terrible harm to others? How many got stoned and harmed anyone? There's your answer as to which is safer :)
Love that rainbowy toroid pic btw - awesome find! Also love your wonderful and enthusiastic energy :) Let your light shine, m'lady - it is beautiful, as are you.
my dear anon…you are so scattered right now. Be at ease, be chill. Don't be afraid of what's in your mind. Take command over your mind - it is your servant. You're the master. Take no actions until you sleep on it. Resting your mind is huge, even if you can't sleep much, rest and meditate. Do the things WW suggested, in time your rest will become more restful.
Guard your mind always. Here's some Thoth wisdom for handling dark thoughts & imaginings:
Now I give unto thee the knowledge,
known to the MASTERS,
the knowing that conquers all the dark fears.
Use this, the wisdom I give thee.
MASTER thou shalt be of THE BROTHERS OF NIGHT.
When unto thee comes a feeling,
drawing thee nearer to the darker gate,
examine thine heart and find if the feeling
thou hast has come from within.
If thou shalt find the darkness thine own thoughts,
banish them forth from the place in thy mind.
Send through thy body a wave of vibration,
irregular first and regular second,
repeating time after time until free.
Start the WAVE FORCE in thy BRAIN CENTER.
Direct it in waves from thine head to thy foot.
But if thou findest thine heart is not darkened,
be sure that a force is directed to thee.
Only by knowing can thou overcome it.
Only be wisdom can thou hope to be free.
Knowledge brings wisdom and wisdom is power.
Attain and ye shall have power o'er all.
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