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Antman those were not my words…I just remembered the story and found someone online that told the story better than I could. :-)It would be probably best to say that nothing I write here is truly my own. I learn from others sharing their water all around us. A reflection of an observed experience. Please don’t ever hold back as we all gain so much from your voice in the flow. The elephant in this room appears quite huge and vast. Pretty safe to say I have no idea where it begins or ends. Seems infinite the more I attempt to step back and try to get a higher view. The more vast I realize it is and how small we all are by comparison. Your insights have been so vital to me when attempting to identify the parameters of the “system or scope” of how it works. I seem to spend a lot of focus on the “use cases”. The story of how features may be utilized or field tested so to speak. Difficult to report back any of my findings as proof. I believe you and Mordo will somehow accomplish that for all of us.

I have been working in the shop today. Its raining hard outside. Its nice… I shut the roller door. Put some music on… its comfy in the shop with the world shut out… all my projects are setup on the bench. New fuel lines and over sized carburetor for the “Rowdy honda”. When finished this motorcycle is going to prove to be yet another scary fast machine. Need to get a few more parts to get that motorcycle back on the trails again. Oil change for the truck,, fuel filter and a wash…. Gotta maintain the illusion of a regular “fix it” guy…disguised as a broken machine.

As I flow through the projects today I have been focused on a friend who had a rough night.

Bare with me as I try to share these Thots…as we all attempt to comprehend what we are all looking at in this moment..

A lot of discussions around ego I’m still trying to comprehend. Help me out here. I realize I’m here telling the story of an ego with an “altar” ego and sometimes his “alter” ego…. Now that right there makes me laugh my ass off when I think about it. I’.m probably the worst of all of us with the walls of text I have shared of my experience with the ego/heart in the bread. I cherish all of you for putting up with me all this time.

So getting rid of the ego…. is that what we look to achieve?… I’m trying learn…. But Why do I have to get rid of the ego? My ego has brought me here. With all of you. He helps out a lot as I attempt to reverse engineer “feature sets.” I have always thot of my ego as one of the characters on show called cheers….Cliff Clayvin the postal worker guy. (Even his name is ironic to me because hes always walking himself off a cliff with his “stories of knowledge”) He was always so full of shit and when he would pop into conversation.

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Cliff would have these hilarious convincing himself type bullshit explanations. Loved that character hes so fucking hilarious…. he actually believes his own BS. His delivery of fun facts were always so convincing with hint of bullshit authority. He was just what he was but always talked a big game to make himself seem more intelligent. So my ego’s alter ego “Cliff” unfortunately has been a good friend…not sure I can just let him go….been with me ever since I can remember. He is what he is but I don’t even care I still love him anyway. Hes showed me a lot. We like the same hobbies. Design, building, fixing, reverse engineering and trying to create new better “systems”. That Cliff when he does pop in lately it has been fucking hilarious. I forgive and laugh at myself everyday…in fact often…. when I attempt to fit in to a system I don’t even recognize anymore. I don’t blame my Cliff or my heart . Its just how we adapted to the situation we were lead to believe was true.

So how are we truly able to release ourselves from all ego? Do we acknowledge the ego for what it is?…(Fucking hilarious sometimes because how ludicrous it is to believe as if it were truth.) Some of the greatest story tellers I have ever met were always full of shit…They always left me guessing if it was made up or they actually experienced the story they were telling. Really didn’t matter I guess…it didn't change the fact of how much I enjoyed experiencing the story of someone else.

I laugh a lot out loud these days. Can’t seem to hold it back… there are so many routes to climb as we all climb together. Its also fun to climb back down look for another route to where you once were and explore other ways to get to other views. Seems like there are curve balls at every turn the more I learn the more I want to learn more with all of you. Thank you all for being a light. Sharing and caring.

Birds get wings as part of their feature set and their mom and dad show them how to fly at a very young age. Humans were given one of the largest pre frontal cortex-es of all the species on the planet. We never really were properly trained by our parents or society because they didn’t learn properly either…. How a very important part of our “feature set” actually works. I feel like this gift requires a great deal of respect and responsibility. Fortunately we have intuition our heart and each other to hold on to as we try to learn to-get-her.

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