I may be mentally in contact with something, but I do not know how to get closer to it and even simply if talking about her will make it disappear, anyone knowwhat to do ? Currently try to approach through my dreams and awake memories, but I often get too "I cant wait to sleep" to the point I cant even sleep well and lose a good part of it, had one dream since then and so far it's good signs but I'd like more

Thanks to any who may help and sorry for not providing resources/etc.