>>13999
There is much to unpack here. I will attempt to keep it succinct and clear. May these words flow the way intended.
>> "More patience, not my timetable." is my general way of looking and finding nothing.
> Your thoughts, your words.
In this Journey there are course corrections and insights around every turn. Sometimes they happen with little effort, sometimes they require digging and work. These words of Timetable are a good example. A lesson in a back and forth with a companion to refine and clarify. I was incorrect. It is always MY timetable, but not always my timetable. The me that is working through the 4D sometimes forces, and sometimes waits to see. Neither in my eyes wrong. The ME that weaves reality owns the timetable. One in the same, but at Times viewed differently.
> Not your timetable?
> I told you it would happen on your own terms.
> Didn't you believe me?
Never said I didn't believe you. It happened on my terms when it should.
> "I have awakened now too, deceiver."
> Not in the Ra Anon threads, but in another.
> Perhaps two posts merged into one.
> 1 believes it was said and 1 does not.
> The truth lies somewhere in between.
I was your Shill and you my deceiver :) ! We have discussed this privately before, but will do it here for ALL. I absolutely did call you deceiver in one of my early posts. It may have even been 'the deceiver'. I have stated before and I will happily put it here again as a restatement. I do not hide from any words I have posted in the past. I own them and they are part of a journey that occurred. I do not regret that and do not hide from it. ( >>1526 )
In those first days of my Spiritual awakening process there was much chaos, confusion, clarity and general craziness. Many here have experienced this effect. The flow of connections is all over and the interactions and actions 1 does can look erratic and cause others to question. That is not a right or wrong, it is simply what was that got 1 on the path.
The part in debate is that I stated 'I have awakened now too…'. I have clarified my view on this statement with you and you yours with me. At this point, I do not feel it matters. I do not need to be correct, there is not pride hurt one way or another. With hind sight, I would clearly say I was in the early stages of some sort of 'Awakening'. If I wrote with different Keys something I intended and you heard different from my intention then can both be accurate and both carry weight and both been part of the path each 1 needed to be on? Your perception of me impacted based on your understanding, my perception of where I was disconnected from that understanding you had. Both integral to the journey.
What is the definition of Awake? Are there steps outlined that show how everyone should go through it? When you are in the process, can you realistically define it when awakening, or are you too far in the weeds? Are there a clear defined 'start here' and 'finish here' sign posts?
My view. Awakening is entirely different for each individual. My path is my own. I had friends and companions that helped along the way, but I did not follow the Strange path, or the WW path, or any other path. It was MY path and the ability to determine if I was awake or not was not clear to me until much time had passed. I knew something was underway, but by standing and declaring something when I didn't know what that something was, would have felt off.
> Have you awakened now too?
Yep
> Before you I place your greatest test in plain sight for all to see.
> Doubt is the origin of ALL wisdom.
At this phase, I do not view this as a test. Test have a right answer and a wrong answer. Duality, my Key in this place. The view is above Duality, so a test loses the connotations it used to carry.
I've thought about how to outline this one. Here is the best I gotst so far.
< You are watching a movie.
< You are watching a 'scripted' movie.
< What makes a good movie?
When you went to go see Endgame, sitting in the crowd and Thanos snaps his fingers, what was your reaction?
Whoa! No way! Now what? There are wide ranging emotions and all sorts of discussions that spring up after the movie. Some upset with Marvel killing their favorites, some excited by the Story.
Did anyone scream in horror believing that half of all people in the real world just disappeared? Did you call friends and family to check on them and make sure they were ok? Did you look around the theater to see if people started to turn to dust?
That would be silly. Movies aren't real, but they can still invoke some real emotions.
> Have you awakened now too?
That is the best way I can lay out this phase of my journey. Something changed and changed drastically and dramatically. Reality shifted. All of reality shifted. For a test to carry weight, I must have some fear of getting the wrong answer, a bad score, or excitement over passing the test. In an others eyes, I may answer wrong at this moment, but in the Grand Span of Time it will have occurred the way I had planned.
A Timeline:
Late 2017: I find Q.
Early 2018 (i think): I begin posting in the Spaceman X thread and something dramatic starts to occur. Call this what you will. An awakening, Spiritual awakening, revelation. whatever. The Journey begins.
Early 2020: Something entirely different than the Spiritual awakening occurs. Duality still seen in Reality, but Non-Duality behind.
I don't feel a need to label it. If 'awakening' twice is against the rule book that I have never seen, then label it otherwise.
Test/Not a Test = Moment in the Movie.
> Believe in your companions…
Wouldn't be here without them and I will need them as I move forward as they will need me.
Much Love All!