Maybe this will be a better place to keep that conversation…

So I had to search what hubris was, excess of confidence right?

No, that is not me, I am kind the opposite.

I never had faith and never believed.

Some part of me knew but I never trusted that part.

I wasn't being or showing hubris, I dont know how to use that word, you know my English socks, that is why I missed a "do" but at least I am pretty sure I wasn't even aware of what is ce5 until a few weeks ago.

So I had all those knowledge about aliens, gods, control, free will, evolution, ego, but I never had faith.

I wasn't wise despite all the knowledge.

Yeah, I couldn't control my ego all the time, I got angry, sad, impulsive. I saw the evil in me. Most of the time I am a really good person, I really care.

When I knew about this elite that controlled us for so many thousands of years I felt the need to do something to try to awake people so they could have a chance to understand and to be free.

I studied and learned, all my life was dedicated to that, to understand and help humanity.

Despite all that I was feeling more and more sad.

The contact have long gone, I wasn't happy with myself personally. I was too far away from those ideals of perfection I had. I understood the necessity of actions. I started to change, to do meditations regularly, to learn about yogue philosophy and everything started to change.

I made an spiritual journey alone.

I ate mushrooms, one that was called the meat of gods. I laugh for so many time, I guess I never felt so much happiness because I understood it was so simple. Life was so easy, so beautiful.

It became more and more easy to believe in those things I knew since I was a child.

It didn't matter if it was true or not, if aliens have told me that, if I had access I could feel it was right.

All that is happening is not new to me.

There are a lot of souls here that knows.

They are trying very hard to keep us apart.

I am not strong, I am not full of faith and I am very far away from losing my ego.

I cried one whole day when I felt attacked, so part of what was said was true.

It is my ego. I have an ego, who here doesn't have?

But I feel that my mission was to find people like me and that we would start to show the world the reality.

With everything I am saying I is easy to understand why I was there at QR and why I am here.

If there is no one here that feels the same I will keep going, nothing will change. I will probably just give up to try to talk about this further.