Thank you for all the answers.
I try to tell you more about me.
I hope my English is to understand.
My awakening process? I would describe this like that.
I grew up with eyes wide open.
My childhood was beautiful. Only my father and mother were unwilling to acknowledge my truth.
The school? I was bored.
I had many discussions about the meaning of politics and society with my
Teachers or psychologists and other experts.
I always had my own world in my head. I remember a card I got to mine
Communion. The one who tames the lions. I ran on my way over many lions. They all couldnt withstand the light of my soul and creeps up again quickly.
I am like an elephant. Quiet but powerful with a thick skin.
I almost forgot about the society.The hatred, violence and illogical conclusions of history.
It must have been Between 1998-2000 when I gained access to the internet and thus freedom.
The pieces of the puzzle which have come up in the meantime due to my taking up of the environment could be resolved.
There was a time when they got me under control I was like a sheep in the herd I just wanted it for the people
make right I loved.
But it didnt bring me happiness only anger and hatred.
I was able to successfully lay it off.I put my soul in the balance of the world and let my light shine.
What happened then? I learned different programming languages,
recognized the patterns in relation to us in the society.
How they program us without us noticing. I went creative but commercially i have no good hand on this.
Because I mostly just wanted to help and money is just paper.
In parallel, I got childrens with my wonderful wife.
And the miracle of life continues to spurt.
Now I have reached 3 decades soon and feel my determination.
When Q emerged, hope finally came back to me. I worked my way through my depression.
Gradually dismissing my vices and continuing to work on developing myself.
I live in Europe and never came to terms with the norm imposed on us after WW2.
I wondered where our identity is. Where is the love I found in books. Who took the love from us?
And everything slowly dissolved on the illusion and the malice of the world had no chance.
I sat back and just watched as my surroundings turned away, talking badly and also
how she tried to destroy my family. But they didnt succeed.
So I dived further and live my truth away from the mainstream.
Away from the artificial drama and war.
When did I really awake and if I really woke up?
I am like a elephant standing in the water of love.
My way is to climb the mountain and do destroy the lie wie living in.
Iam and will be.