I know where you're coming from. I was born and raised christian and then highly influenced with judiasm in my teen years. I lived this way of believing for 30 years until one day I got curious and started researching. Been at it for over 10 years now and still going. The brainwashing from religion is really hard to get rid of. I had a lot of mental arguments with myself over all of this lol
As for if we're supporting good or evil, I go with my inner voice as to what I feel something is. You will recognize it. The hard part is not caring what others think about how you are thinking/feeling. The biggest most important thing I learned that has helped me through this journey is this: Based on religious brainwashing, what they say is bad is actually good and what they say is good is actually bad. It's not 100% but it does ring true on the most important things. This way of thinking can be used in every topic of our lives including aliens. The cabal doesn't want us believing and learning about aliens. Why? Because there are many aliens that want and will help us and this will destroy their evil little party here on Earth.
There are many many things about aliens (especially the Anunnaki) that we were all brainwashed into believing. The cabal has taken all of the things of the ancient world and twisted it for their own game. Whatever they didn't need they destroyed or at least tried to. Whatever they didn't want common man to be involved with they created a view of evil so we would avoid it and not learn the truth.