It's all a psyop my friend. When we look outside ourselves for the answers that is the force that pushes for a reaction. Its responding to the external. Good or bad feels it's by design used to create confusion, doubt etc…The true power is within and all around you if you can become quiet enough to listen. This power is pervasive and it is within all of us. Choice and free will are always available to US. Let go of all of it and listen to your heart. That energy will guide you to peace and all you have to do is ask. You will be guided. I can't prove anything to you. This is a dig you must perform within yourself, with a level of will and sincerity. All I can say is its been there for me. It's a challenge at the beginning. Breaking through the layers. With time it gets easier. Like riding a bike. You don't even have to think about it. It just is and you can flow with it if you let go. Fighting it presents lessons that will be shown to you until you take the next step on the climb. It's not happening TO you. It's happening FOR you. To learn and grow as one. The love the light and the energy that just is waiting for you if you look by your own free will.
We live in a thought driven universe. A hologram. Your body is participating at all times. So why wouldn't we get about the business of creating what you want to see? I believe in you. Now just try to let go to the flow. Hope that helps. Be the creator that you really are! L/L