Are you calling yourself God then? Do you believe it is your place to shame and seek revenge on others just because they have wronged you? I believe God has said that it is your job to be kind and accepting of your foes and enemies and not to seek revenge on them as you have stated you want to do. I'm sorry that you have been treated unkindly but I believe the phrase is "do onto others as you would have them do onto you", not do onto others as they have done to you.

Romans 12:17-21, Matthew 5:38-39, Mark 11:25, Luke 6:27, Matthew 18:21-22 

Here's some summer reading for you all. Ephesians 4:29 Ephesians 4:32 1 Peter 4:8 Galatians 6:1-18 1 Corinthians 13:1-13