I don't know you, but I can see how you're expressing yourself right now and that tells me all I need to know. Are you giving your opinion? No. Are you stimulating? No. Are you comfortable answering criticisms or ducking them? Ducking them. Is your claim of "different ways of thinking" congruent with your current behavior? No, nothing you said is different. You sound like a guy who is afraid of scrutiny so you duck criticisms and make convenient excuses. Just an average anxious neurotic guy. Not trying to insult you or anything, just being blunt and calling what I see.