This represents me in every job I've had.
Good on ya mate. Fuckin weirdos ay.
You sound strong and focussed. You can rest assured that your saga is yours and yours alone. There is no incentive even for the good guys to help you with closure. You have a virtual friend in me. We may have did OK in a parallel universe, unfortunately we are managed, judged and massaged in this one. Optics and marketing is King. Haha.
Haha. I sleep like a baby. Most of 'my' problems aren't mine, but there is a tribe of Bravehearts running atop the mountain eagerly waiting to pounce to tell me that I am responsible for the way things have turned out, so whatevs. I'm cool. It's not me, it's all of you. Haha. Classic.
Too much money. Too many reputations. Just get a job and make the most of it. Glorious.
If it comes out, people can feel sorrry for ya and then you will be the poor widdle boy that had to go through all that misery and lose all those years (secretly they don't give a fuck about you… glorious). They will admire your strength and improvisation (secretly thanking fuck it wasn't them and looking down on you… glorious).
Then, they'll blame you for ruining their plans… glorious.