I'd like to continue this conversation and if you have any answers to help me get over this state of mind, I'd love to hear what you have to offer.
Nobody can sell "cool" or "luxury" anymore.
Isn't it weird? Like, even being an "influencer" means nothing. What are you influencing? We're all stuck at home if we're non-essential, working if we're essential, and wearing masks to go outside and just buy the essentials.
Both the D's and R's are trying to help everyone who is part of this sick ,transactional work-and-survive culture, but what about those who aren't a part of this system? How does the government work for them?
I think about how the love I received as a child can never be recreated as an adult. Love and life become so transactional when you grow up. Everyone loves you when you're a child. They shower so much praise and love upon you, but when you grow up that kind of love can never be found again.
Did I break the board?
Did I break the board?
This is what I attempted to post before the board died:
I think about how the love I received as a child can never be recreated as an adult. Love and life become so transactional when you grow up. Everyone loves you when you're a child. They shower so much praise and love upon you, but when you grow up that kind of love can never be found again.
Sorry
And that's how I feel about God
The matrix is trying to maintain it's existence and integrity
Too many black pills destroy the blue and red pill dichotomy
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I hate "a tale of two cities"
I see it in my own city
And city, really
How can the rich and well-off love their lives day-to-day while people are starving and dying all around them?
If the pills are free, I'll take them all.
This world is cruel and awful. I have lived my whole life not being able to enjoy the finer things in life knowing very well that everything nice is fleeting and there will always be people who are suffering.
Even just having something nice in your life to enjoy gets ruined by those around you.
Why shoot anyone?
How can I ignore those around me when life is essentially forced participation, whether you like it or not?
Hell is existence and existence is Hell.
Do you think that those with seemingly picture-perfect existences hate themselves for the fact that their whole existence literally comes down to "doing it for the gram?"
Think picture-perfect POTUS feels that way?
She didn't lie.
Q: Why did you vote for Trump?
A: Because I wanted to watch the world burn.
Q: Do you support President Trump?
A: I guess? When you choose to watch the world burn, you have to stick with your decision.
POTUS once said that dog-owners are low-class!
Gonna add more fuel to it!
Everyone stopped wearing ties once I tried to neck myself with one.
Remember all of those fancy graphics that would appear at the top of Q Research back before 8chan turned into 8kun?
What was the one graphic about Trump not being able to watch the world burn?
Isn't that why we all voted for him to begin with… Because we wanted to watch the world burn?
Q: How awful is it that poor people in China eat dogs to survive?
A: I've never owned a dog of my own, so I guess I don't particularly care about "man's best friend" getting eaten. Also, pet-owners hate black people!
How fucked up is it that I was a witness to my stepsister marrying a military hero, and then he died from a recreational skydive and I never sent my condolences to her because 1) he supposedly cheated on her, 2) she was already in the process of divorcing him, and 3) I thought I would've been a better partner to him than she was?
This is one of the many big secrets I keep. None of my secrets are bad in particular, but I am so fucking judgmental and it really affects the way I react to this world and the people in it.
Also, she got a big payout once he died and built herself a very nice house in a fire-prone area in CA (fire destroyed it), even though they were already separated.
Wanna know another big scumbag secret?
My dad died of lung cancer almost exactly a year ago and I wasn't there when he passed away.
He died at a family friend's house.
I wasn't there for the post-death ceremony (is that what it's even called?).
He got cremated and his ashes were sent to his home country, which were not his wishes.
He would've wanted me to dump the ashes off of a pier here in Los Angeles.
He never liked the fact that I was gay.
I was in jail when he died.
I told people I wanted to end up in jail to get an unlimited amount of dick up my ass, but when I was in jail, I never touched anyone in that manner.
This Q thing destroyed my whole life.
It ruined all of my friendships and relationships with family members.
But now I feel more free than I've ever felt in my life.
Nobody to tell me what to do or think.
I wouldn't say I was always a scumbag…
But once you realize that your whole life was directed by those around you… That I never really had any sort of agency… That I did everything everyone around me told me to do…
It's nice not having anyone trying to shape your life based on their own upbringings and experiences.
Never.
Maybe it freed me? =D
I already posted my social security number and all other sorts of personal information on here. It's weird how everyone tries to protect someone who is actively destroying their own life. I guess Q was right when they said that there are more good people than bad in this world.
None of us will ever receive the love we received as children.
Why is killing your ego so important?
Who do you benefit by killing your ego?
The people around you?
Killing my ego doesn't benefit me at all.
More like a nightmare
I know cruelty. Most people don't know cruelty like I know it. Or even how to deal it on the level that I can. It's not something to be proud of, but I think my reactions to those around me have definitely helped me give up a lot of the things that most people rely on to be complete.
Family?
Friends?
So many people in jail had family and friends to call and talk to, or just get money placed on their books.
Not me.
Ending up in jail, for me, was seen as a really bad thing.
Also ending up in jail freed me of my past, my relationships, and ultimately the connection I have with other humans.
I feel more free than I've ever felt before, but also so disconnected from humanity.
Isn't it weird how this pandemic has suddenly place people in either the essential or non-essential category?
As a gay male whose parents probably never wanted to raise me, I've already felt non-essential my whole life.
It's nice to have other people understand what it's like to be considered non-essential.
Weird how life is. Everyone pretends to fight for your right to exist and thrive, but they still are so willing to cancel people for literally nothing.
There is no book to write.
Too bleak and filled with a lot of unpleasant truths about humans as a species.
Nobody would buy it.
Why pay for a depressing read?
Q would tire of my pretty quickly.
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I've spent so much of this past week hungover and blacked out.
It's nice to lose yourself and not remember what you did or said.
I guess love and evil do exist.
You experience love as a child.
You experience evil as an adult.
Evil is the realization that the love you experienced as a child will never be replicated.
Everyone else seems to think it is.
What is the point of journaling and documenting your life if you can't have an audience for your reflection?
What else do you guys have to focus on tonight? Q? The news?
Maybe I will keep my most evil and dark secrets to myself and put them into a book to sell…
I don't filter anything on here anymore.
Isn't it strange watching people try to recreate the dumb, performative rituals they perform in their day-to-day lives online now that everyone is more or else considered essential or non-essential?
Not a bot. >>10480976
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As it should be.
You sound jealous.
It sure is weird being a gay person.
You have a "best friend" who tells you she fucked her female best friend's boyfriend.
You keep the secret because keeping secrets and not snitching is nice, right?
But then that best friend ultimately picks the female friend to affiliate and associate with…
Why not tell the secret to the friend?
I don't understand this response or reference you are trying to make. Maybe my bot sensibilities really make it hard for me to communicate with people…
Is it evil to stir the pot and just tell people what you really think? Most people don't want to know the truth.
I ruined so many relationships by telling people what I heard about them or others from other people.
This day
What makes you think I'm a liberal? I voted for Trump.
This is an idealization of what happens to bad people.
Nobody is in panic mode.