Not to get into your personal business, but can give you some advice re: benzos. If you wanted to design a molecule to hook a human being, you'd design a benzodiazepine. They are very bad on many levels. Studies are showing 400% increase in Alzheimer's with benzo users. Wean off slowly, they're a notorious bitch to quit..then stay far, far away.
Green is cool, but like everything..in moderation. I've been given and hooked on everything over the decades…clean is best. Alcohol is the absolute worst, then scripts. Good luck.