Anons - I've been praying on how to move into this next phase where we have to help awaken those around us who have been sleeping. I'm struggling with preparing myself to be compassionate. I want to twist the knife instead. The time is coming very soon. Could use a little autist/anon wisdom here.

Clearly the perpetrators of all this need justice, and they will receive it. In trying to follow the path of light, I don't know how easy it will be to quell feelings of delight. Justice delivered should provide a sense of satisfaction in it's own right. I worry that I will thoroughly enjoy watching them go down, not out of a sense of justice, but as a result of the rage and hatred that has been building up in my spirit for many years, and watching them suffer. I don't want to admit this to myself, but I know I will not be able to find it within my heart to pray for these evil ones.

And what I'm really worried about is my inability to forgive those around me who were not involved in the crimes, but who listened to fake news, derided our POTUS, ridiculed deplorable, mocked us as conspiracy theorists, jumped on the BLM bandwagon, called us racist/stupid/insane. Many are people who I at one time cared for, even loved. I am trying to find forgiveness in my heart, and I know Q has instructed us to reach out to them and help them through what is coming. I just don't know if I can.