what can we do? just pray for him.
It's sad to be that broken like he is.
did you come out of your drug induced haze?
why do you shamelessly post pictures of someoen who you don't really know and say 'he's my husband?'
I make meals and use of TV dinner trays.
I eat one portion and freeze two portions.
that way I get more variation, and am not stuck eating the same thing for three days in a row.
you're delusional.
PS: hC has a very common body type.
If yo move to Italy there are places where half the men look like him. Go to a beach there in the summer and you'll maybe find one who want to be your friend.
weird.
ya, no it's common. you just haven't found the right part of Italy.
I have a body just like his, and so does my brother.
my nephews, by cousins.
every guy in Abruzzi . . . .
I wish you were OK and I could get to know you.
I maybe once met you . . . ?
anyway sad you're stuck like that.
Ya, he's got a young and ruddy face, true.
but again, other men are just as fetching.
and they haven't been poisoned to you and aren't creeped out by your obsession.
the love between men isn't supposed to be covetousness and creepy. If you love a man who is a leader of men, you can't be the wya you are, they will not have.
you've fallen for a man who is, parden my being crued, 'just an actor'.
other men are commanding and wonderful and very worthy of devotion.
but they can't be owned.
the sense of 'slavery is wrong, owning a man' is wrong.
let Henry free and release him from your thoughts. It's only when you get past your obsessive creepy fetish about a body and face type that you can move on and find a real family that is worth being in.
and a guy like Henry will show up and be a friend. You won't own him. you can love him. He might not let you touch him.
but he'll love you back.
you choose an unavailable man who is alreayd devoted to other things.
you harm yourself in this way.
Rumi understood such obsession.
His recommendation? probably to see the qualities in other peole.
when you 'see' a 'quality' of a person, that is you, not them. without your capacity to notice that the quality might not even really exist.
if you 'let go' of the obsession and can come to know the person who you claim to love, wihtout projecting on him 'qualities' of perfection you might actually find that a man, a man such as HC or anyone, if FAR MORE remarkible than you can notice now.
but you block it and make it fowl
you make it so he can't be your friend. So how could he be more than that?
marry yourself, get over your unholy obsession.
fall in love wiht your own person. Free yourself form the lust for unobtainible men and just love them from the distance.
That is the lot of the sane and older gay person in our world.
that whole 'dream boat fantasy prine love' thing is bogus.