1. My God questions.

Why did God put Adam and Eve in a garden with a poisonous snake that would lead to so much destruction, death and pain for thousands of years? Would you do that to a child of yours who was innocent and had no knowledge of what was about to happen to them and their offspring? Their eyes weren’t opened until after they had “sinned”. And then they knew they were naked. Why is naked bad all of a sudden? Weren’t they made in the image of God? Naked is good. I have had some of my best times naked. Opening up myself to another person. They weren’t on the same level spiritually as God and Satan. I thought we were made in the image of God? Are the Greeks right……..are we just playthings to be swatted about? Weird shit.

Have you ever experienced a sudden death or seen a person take their last breath? Have you ever been able to see through a patient’s throat because of cancer, while they struggle to breathe and phlegm and necrotic tissue I s oozing out? They rot until they die. Do you know that smell? Have you ever witnessed a father carrying his 11 year old daughter into the hospital with tears streaming down his face because he knew this was it, and he wanted to carry her in. This daughter of his. That was his job. And then the entire family filling the corridor sitting on the floor with their backs against the wall waiting for it to happen? It took a couple of days. They never left. What a family. How heartbreaking it was. Have you ever seen toddlers visiting their mother for the last time carrying balloons into her hospital room not knowing what was about to happen to their lives? One of the saddest scenes I have ever seen. The last time I saw my mother was when I was 7 years old looking through the keyhole of my bedroom door, watching her gasping for air while she passed by on a gurney. She died a few hours later at the age of 37. My whole world went dark. All of us children began to scream while we watched our father being carried into our house by his brothers. His legs dragging behind him no longer able to support his weight due to his grief and and his crippling MS. We knew in that moment. We woke up the whole neighborhood with our wailing. And they came. A priest was called and had us all kneel and started to pray the rosary. I hated it. It was bs, the rhythmic chanting going on around me. My mother was dead. My whole world went dark. Pain like that can carry on for generations. Is that a “generational curse”? Is that a loving God?

Exodus 34:7

“God visits the iniquity of the fathers on the children and the children’s children to the 3rd and 4th generation”. wth is that all about? You would think that every new life that takes it’s first breath would have a fighting chance. But I guess not.

Why did God repent for putting man on earth? Does that mean God made a mistake? I thought God was perfect? Genesis 6:6.

“And it repented the Lord that he had made man on the earth, and it grieved him at his heart.”

>>12775915

1. From what I understand God’s timeline isn’t ours. A thousand years in our time can be a day in God’s time. So where does that leave us? Is Q a prophetic drop that happens every couple of hundred of years? No wonder people can’t put it all together and struggle with God. But who are we “oh man” to ask why? We hope and cling and see signs that aren’t there. Yet we still hope. And hope and hope. Because what else is there but hope? Without hope man perishes.

Job was blessed “double” after all the hell he went through. His life was destroyed. He was a true and faithful servant of God for says so. . Where did that get him? And why did God put a spotlight on his faithful servant and ask Satan: “What about my servant Job”? That sounds like a set up. Purposely put Job in harms way. Do you really think Job forgot his heartache or the wife of his youth? His first love. Or his family with her? So what was she his “starter wife”? These are people that were destroyed. Living human beings who were loved and breathed . Does this bring glory to God?

God is the potter and we are the clay. There are some vessels that are created for destruction and others for glory. I am not feeling good about this because I am a very broken and tired person at this point in time. Does that mean I am going to hell for eternity because I have been beaten up by life? Maybe a few smacks too many? Am I doomed for questioning everything? Am I a vessel created for destruction? If I completed my predetermined goal for destruction should I be cast aside for fulfilling what I was created for? Destruction. Or should I receive a pat on the back for fulfilling what I was created for and “walk” with God?

Why does God & perhaps Q (since we are on a qresearch board) speak so cryptically? In riddles? Yet through the riddles man still seeks out God and hope? We were so hopeful anons. Weren’t you just waiting to hear the boots hitting the ground during the inauguration until the last second? I was so ready for justice. And for peace. The whole world has been turned upside down. Now we have to understand that the children we have born and our grandchildren are in for a great tribulation. A lot of pain coming their way. Where is God?

We always hope, yet never see any great revelation. It is always another day and hang on just a little bit longer. We never see God riding in a cloud to save us. Where is Jehovah Jireh our provider, Yahweh, the God of Abraham and Jacob?

I would really appreciate some direct communication at this point from God. But who am I to ask such a thing? A human being made in God’s image and so blessed and cared for. Is that asking too much? Or am I a heretic for asking such a thing? Go ahead dam me.

This is all so fucked up.

I am so worried about my children’s and grandchildren’s future. I see a lot more hell for them than what I have experienced. And I had such hope. That is what makes it hard. I had hope again. It was truly crushing to those of us who who showed up at the Capital for God and country, only to be used for a fucking psyop and be marginalized in our private lives. I should have seen it coming, only I didn’t because I believed. Why do I do that to myself?

At this point I don’t long for heaven but perhaps the peace and darkness of the grave. Perhaps then the pain will stop.

>>12775930

Well that doesn’t answer any of my questions. Please help me to understand what you are saying?

>>12775939

I liked to laugh during sex. Does that help?

>>12775946

A spiritual child with such consequences? Man’s helpmate.