I have anon, it's why I dedicate my life to sharing Truth.
Take care of that giant log in your eye anon.
I have a simple suggestion… Pray to the Father as Jesus told you and for Truth, even if everything you THINK you know is a lie. Put your faith in Him, not those He warned you about.
You are in complete darkness. You follow the Pharisees. Those who exalt themselves and call themselves Christs substitute. He warned you about them. The Sun will be turned black as goat hair.
The stone will be throne down.
Pay attention as the Witnesses Stand!
May God the Father open your eyes and ears to Truth if it's His will. God Bless you in Jesus name.