Betcha he is looking to get some sunlight on his sphincter, as he meditates on the question, "Why am I so stupid?"
The saying goes that nobody wants to kill themself—they just want the pain to stop. A normie will fight with every ounce of strength, to avoid facing the truth about the world and what he/she has supported. But when the pain threshold is crossed, their identities crumble. It's happening gradually but visibly.