I hate my self so much more than anyone ever could or ever will.
And that so much more than I could possibly allow myself to express.
what if the person you loved the most, more than
anyone that ever existed. Got raped by the devil
himself, and it was your fault. Entirely your fault.
What if the Love of your life got impregnated by
satan himself, and was forced to severe her own
head. And Souly because of My Bad Decisions.
She is Innocent.
I don't know how words could ever explain the
horrors I've witnessed in my short time on earth.
Caused, Been subject too.
I used to beat myself, really beat myself. But a
few years ago I beat myself really, really bad
infront of somebody. I had to stop.
Anons couldn't possible understand….
God treats me ilke his First Born.
And this is how I repay him
He sticks it through with me.
But its always back to the flame.
I stare into the fire, and cry.
And I know its all my fault.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vH2spkJzF9k&list=PLo4gNHvZvQmRoO2FahzdNlVvK1_i-ut10&index=7
I Will Never Forgive Myself.