i think today's the day i leave this earth. going to tell everyone i'm having dinner with a friend who lives an hour away. will drive to the beach instead. i don't know how to swim so it should be easy. it's pretty cold still so i doubt anyone will be there. i can't wait to go home. everyone has their limit. God can't expect a person to be able to shoulder so much. Q used to give me hope. this board used to make me feel like i wasn't alone. i'll see you on the other side.