tyb
I've been seeing your posts. and I didn't engage because this is not the place for it.
And, all caps is kind of a warning.
But, this isn't supposed to be a pepe meme farm either.
so you need to go ahead and accept your current circumstance.
you are trying to escape something and running away from the reality doesn't help.
You know things could be worse, but they've been better. Be thankful for what you have.
that's a great idea. Ima do the same. Not sure if my situation is the same, but similar enough to relate with your prescribed cure.