Been there, done that. Sometimes, getting a peek of the other side of what they do hits you even harder than simple acknowledgement. There are many, many more suffering people in the world than I'm afraid even anons recognize. These people weigh heavily in anon's heart. Wish there was more anon could do to fix that. It's why anon's tried so hard over the years to do what little anon can do, here, and out there. Maybe John the Presbyterian's sword of Truth will trumpet for God to step in when the time's right?