I AM NOT EVEN TRYING TO UNDERSTAND ANY OF THIS NOW, I SIMPLY LOST ALL MY INTEREST AND I AVOID EVEN THINKING ABOUT ANY OF IT, I JUST SIMPLY WAIT FOR HER AND MEANWHILE I AM EVER READY TO DIE AND I JUST DON'T GIVE A FUCK AND TRY TO FORGET ABOUT ALL OF THIS, CONGRATULATIONS FOR ALL I CAN NOW REMEMBER IS HOW HARD YOU ALL FUCKED ME OVER TOGETHER WITH MY ENTIRE FAMILY PLAYING ALONG!!!