There are two reasons why adults can remember with such detail events that happened in their past: First, the terror they
experienced was so stark that it was indelibly placed in their mind. Second, the memory was compartmentalized in a
certain portion of the mind and was not subjected to the dilution of experiences of ensuing years. When it is tapped, it is
as fresh as if it happened yesterday.
The memories seem to come in layers. For example, the first memory might be of incest; then they remember robes and
candles; next they realize that their father or mother or both were present when they were being abused. Another layer
will be the memory of seeing other people hurt and even killed. Then they remember having seen babies killed. Another
layer is realizing that they participated in the sacrifices. One of the most painful memories may be that they even
sacrificed their own baby. With each layer of memory comes another set of problems with which they must deal.
Some have said that the witnesses to this type of treatment cannot be trusted because of the victim's unstable condition
and because practically all of them have some kind of dissociative disorder; in fact, the stories are so bizarre as to raise
serious credibility questions. The irony is that one of the objectives of the occult is to create multiple personalities
within the children in order to keep the "secrets." They live in society without society having any idea that something is
wrong since the children and teenagers don't even realize there is another life occurring in darkness and in secret.
However, when sixty witnesses testify to the same type of torture and murder, it becomes impossible for me, personally,
not to believe them.
I mention multiple personalities because the spiritual healing which must take place in the lives of these victims cannot
happen without their priesthood leaders understanding something about it.
The spiritual indoctrination which takes place during the physical abuse is one of the most difficult to overcome. In
addition to experiencing stark terror and pain, the children are also instructed in satanic doctrine. Everything is
completely reversed: white is black, black is white, good is bad, bad is good, Satan is going to rule during the
Millennium.
Children are put in a situation where they believe they are going to die–such as being buried alive or being placed in a
plastic bag and immersed in water. Prior to doing so, the abuser tells the child to pray to Jesus to see if He will save her.
Imagine a seven year old girl, having been told she is going to die, praying to Jesus to save her and nothing happens–
then at the last moment she is rescued, but the person saving her is a representative of Satan. He uses this experience to
convince her that the only person who really cares about her is Satan, she is Satan's child and she might as well become
loyal to him.
Just before or shortly after their baptism into the Church, children are baptized by blood into the satanic order which is
meant to cancel out their baptism into the Church. They will be asked if they understand or have ever felt the Holy
Ghost. When they reply that they have, they will be reminded of the horrible things they have participated in and will be
told that they have become a son (or daughter) of perdition and, therefore, have no chance of being saved or loved by
our Father in heaven or Jesus.
All of this indoctrination takes place with whichever personality has immerged to endure the physical, mental, and
spiritual pain. Consequently, there develops within each of these individuals the makings of what I call a civil war. As
the memories begin to surface, there are personalities who feel they have given themselves to Satan, and there is no
hope for forgiveness. The core person is an active member of the Church, often with a temple recommend. As
integration takes place, the civil war begins. Sometimes, in an interview, personalities of the dark side have come out.
They are petrified or perhaps full of hate for me and what I represent. Eventually those personalities need to be dealt
with spiritually and psychologically.