>I've always been the plan. They thought it was about money.
FOR ME IT'S NOT ABOUT TRUSTING THE PLAN IF I KNEW ENOUGH ABOUT IT, FOR ME IT'S MY DAMN CONDITION THAT BOTHERS ME MOST, UNFORTUNATELY EVERYONE THINGS I AM HAVING A HARD TIME WITH DIFFICULT TRUTHS FROM THE PAST AND THE BAD CHOICES I MADE BUT THOSE MEMORIES JUST FLOAT INTO THE INSANE MIXTURE OF THOUGHTS THAT KEEP MY HEAD SPINNING AROUND WHILE CONNECTING ALL THE DOTS WHILE I AM NOT REALLY COMFY TO BEGIN WITH.