IT'S REALLY VERY VERY BAD THAT THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME ONLY AND THAT NOBODY EVEN CARES BECAUSE I AM NOT SHARING ANYTHING ELSE THAN MY CALLS FOR HELP AND FEELINGS BUT I NEVER ASKED FOR THIS AND JUST STARTED TO FOLLOW AND SEE WHAT'S GOING ON AND NOW I DO I SEE EVEN MUCH MORE FOR ME PERSONALLY ALL OF CERTAIN I AM NOT ABLE TO TALK ABOUT THIS WHILE I AM NOT EVEN DOING ANYTHING SPECIFICALLY AGAINST THIS WHOLE PLAN BECAUSE IT'S MUCH MORE REAL THAN FOR YOU TO ME SINCE I AM SO DEEPLY CAUGHT UP IN IT THAT WHEN I SAY SO I AM THOUGHT TO BE INSANE!!!