Q team -

It has been 7 years. We have had 0 arrests and 0 awakening. I have personally spent the last 7 years doing everything I can to help fight evil in this world. To date all I have to show for it is strained relationships and a job that is literally going fucking nowhere.

Maybe it's my fault for expecting anything to change. It's certainly my fault for trying to fix things even though I knew I was fighting an impossible battle. But fuck. I know what I found. I know exactly what it meant, and I shared it with as many people as I could. I will not forget that. Nothing can make me forget what I found.

I'm getting tired of waiting for things to happen. Seven years is too long to expect anyone to fucking patiently wait for something to happen. I'm at my wits end. I'm nearly done giving a shit about other people. I'm nearly done caring. When I am actually done I'm done for good. You will not get me back. I believe I can help in ways most people can't, but I am beyond feeling abused. And I know this was all my choice, but at least all of you know that you're actually helping, you know you're not crazy, your communities know you're doing good work. I get none of that. I get literally nothing.