tubbs, you're not even "trans". I know you have presented yourself as "trans", but you're just a gay crossdressing attentionseeking faggot.. not judging you for that, here, just distinguishing.. but we can generalize and say "trans" is all about not acknowledging that they're freaks, pretending its normal and/or the same, inventing new bullshit words and attempting to change the meaning of other words by undermining their previous meaning etc.. Idk.. just food for thought.. you just seem like a crossdressing faggot that embraces his biological truth and his freaky deviation from normative behavior. Pretty gay though.
I dunno man.. many years and many tears to figure it out sounds like anyone.. idk what most kids are like.. I never had any kind of attraction to other males, but I did have anguish/frustration/jealousy issues when faced with the implied expectation that I would successfully exude masculine characteristics.. But life goes on and it takes awhile to become a man… each kid is different and some people end up gay… being 11-19 is trying in a lot of ways, its a frustrating period where we all come to terms with who we are/are becoming.. and todays kids are emotionally crippled and remain confused well into their 20s.. but clearly the distinguishing factor in the trans community is that someone helps you see a doctor who tells you its not healthy for you to be confused/depressed as a kid, and urges you to further pursue add'l delusion instead of waiting for you to grow up..