maybe I have won the lottery already, dunno. I hope I have. right now I will not check the numbers as I am a little afraid of the consequent actions I will have to take if I have not won.

unfortunately you still go against me and instead of recharging me by smiles and money some of you keep attacking. those who do not understand need to be taken out of the game.

I made clear that a situation when I shop groceries cannot be used to meed God. this is a son thing. and I am a little pissed I even have to do this. I am pissed a lot I have to do this with the circumstances that you created (that is the "creation" you can do). given that I tought you so much and was there for you so often it should be clear that you cannot use irl situation and force me to teach you. this is no way. it leads to rejection. and today, again, I have to reject you all.

when I watch a movie the actors, those high level masons, can talk to me when I invite them for a conversation. obviously this is a better way for comms as I have some time to think and am not afraid of saying some symbolic bs in the supermarket. all I say in those "please, Lord, help me, I intentionally walk infront of you smelling disgusting, please save me now" situations is: rejected.

some random weak cunt I meat in a supermarket should know that whatever input there is, annoying me is no way ever.

some understand and just look to my direction to show to others. others don´t get it, as they are not all smart 1% actor folks, leading to them stepping out of the aisle just when I pass, which is obviously provocant and bad behaviour. rejection.

as still some don´t get it still all of you will not have the chance to meet me like that.

today: rejection.

realize that building trust again will take a long time and it will grow exponentially with every day that even one of you annoys me.

there better is money when I check.

and again, obviously the world will not get any better if you treat me poorly. and indeed the "war" is needed to keep all options. you really are not important. I am.