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At this very moment I feel modulated. I feel altered in a way that I know I'm not supposed to feel, and for some reason I still fail to comprehend why I must be forced to feel this way. If there was something so wrong with the way I was living, how come they waited from 2012 until a couple of years ago till now? It takes you over 10+ years to suddenly hate me? None of the people whom seem to make my way of life the sheer reason they are unhappy. These are STRANGERS! Not anons.

Anons,"they,"don't need to hurt me, belittle me, make fun of me, tease me, make me feel like my body is being fucked with, like they are able to use technology that is supposed to be used for good, is now being used for selfish terror. Why God? I was doing so well. I made all new friends. I was making art everyday. I was chipper, I always had a good mood. I was excited, enthusiastic. I truly was having fun, for the first time in decades. Why did they NEED to take that away from me? Why do they think it's going to do anything for them? They're not going to succeed in changing who I am. That's set in stone. I will always be the person SHEILD cared about.

I can't be anyone else. There is no reason to teach me to be able to somehow change how I perceive attacks to my person, that which are unwarranted and unwelcome. Who gives them the right to change my life? They don't. One day, something much more powerful and in control with higher authority, will eventually have no choice but to help me, and step in and end the misery my little life has become.

I truly thought SHEILD was there because of some really cool turn of events. I don't want to think it was all a lie, just to be able to interupt my ability to be part of The Great Awakening. I really thought she would've been a great addition to our movement, because of how special she is. She's so unique, and I wanted to be anon with her. Just her.

Hopefully, AdventureQuest will actually come true, and houseFeeling won't be an ~~unstoppable pain~~ in my life.

I pray the people who hate me, and are causing me so much pain in my life, cease.

Please God, make them go away.

I want to be happy again, the way I worked so hard for.

Day by day.

Hour by hour.

God, give me the armor to defend against their evil. Please. I just want to go home to that dream, that I truly thought was finally becoming real.

Damnit, I don't want to go to sleep to be the real me.

I am and always will be the real me.

Someone, for the love of God…

…why must they be there?

May the energy put forth in this moment be solely utilized for the purpose of making the world a better place for positive people!

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