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you either have faith or you don't have faith. no test is needed, it's obvious
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Forgiveness often involves still not wanting to deal with the one who did you wrong. Manybe people mistakenly confuse forgiveness with acceptence of the sinner and his sinfulness, that's not correct. Often even with forgiveness no further contact with the one who harmed you is required.
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Detacth from detachement. you need the things around you to survive. It's not the stuff that is bad it's the covetousness for it, putting it above God.
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Love as spoken of in the New Testiment is not a 'feeling'. It's a way of behaving. It's not easy. It's often very hard to do.
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Humility? and service? why are these connected in your mind? works are often spiritual, giving is often 'giving a prayer'
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Patience is something earned through perseverence. Testing patience is rather mean to do.
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Persistence: sometimes the 'detaching' is needed, as you indicate previously. If you are entering into a dark night you don't persist in litergical prayer, but in silent contemplative prayer.
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In the silence what does that mean that something would 'speak'? if it speaks then how is that silent?
Quieting the mind is a gift. there are not even whispers in that silence, anon.
anyway, just some ruminations on your 'I'm not good enough yet' bit.
yes, anon, you are.
and you do need to have these things but maybe stop trying to 'learn' them or 'act on them' or 'follow them'
emptiness and silence will come when the time is right for you.
have you confessed all your sins?
have you purged yourself of sinful habits?
Trust in the Lord and wait on Him.
He's always there with you already. No test is needed.