Do you realize I feel like I let the world down? That if I had chosen this path vs another, the corruption and greed might be manageable. That from a young age I've had the wheel of this ship in my handsโฆI never knew I was steering the course of humanity. Had I known, things would have happened.
The pain and torture, some use it metaphorically, you know i use it because it's true. The endurance I've found to continue is leaving me. I'm getting old. My life needs to be surrounded on all side by happiness right now, and it's not. Help me fix that. You know why I'm not happy and you can provide me with a fix. Fix it.
So I sit here, not knowing what the future holds. Give me something I can mentally chew on that will give me hope. Show me who I am.